Not me || JJ Maybank

Sluts and secrets

Bens POV

At the party, when I went back outside after JJ suggested it. HE FUCKING IGNORED ME. I need to stop. I need to stop caring about what he thinks of me, or if he likes. I need him to just go back to being the guy who never talked to me in the group.

I dunno- I try not to care, but he just confuses me so much. Why not talk to me when we're with the group? Why only talk to me when we're alone? Do you think your friends will think you're gay if you're seen talking to me? Come on. Be so Fr. No one would think that. He's literally the horniest, straightest, man I've ever met.

I started to get annoyed with him ignoring me, and left to go talk to a couple other people from our school. I didn't really like them but i wanted to get away for a moment.

Afterwards, I walked back to the table where they had the drinks, and I was getting myself another beer. That's when I heard a voice speak from behind me.

"Why were you talking to them?" I hear a familiar voice ask

I turn around and look behind my shoulder to see JJ standing right behind me.

"What?" I ask and turn back around.

"You don't even like them, why were you talking to them?" He asked again. He was being so weird.

"Am I not allowed to talk to people?" I asked and cracked open another beer

"I'm just sayin" JJ shrugged "why'd you leave us to go talk to them?"

"Why do you even care?" I asked, finally "you don't even talk to me"

He smiled and looked around suspiciously

"Yea, I do" he said. But I could tell in his voice that he knew that wasn't true.

"No you don't" I laughed "not when we're with the group"

He bit his lip as he thought for a moment

"See you know I'm right" I laughed and turned back around.

"Okay, well, in my defense, I don't even notice that I do that, so" he said as he started to follow me. It seem like he was trying to keep my attention.

"Right" I say sarcastically

"No really" he said, still following me "I just get distracted by everyone else. And you never talk to me either so"

"Well what do you want me to say" I asked

"Exactly" JJ chuckled and smiled as he spoke "why do I have to be the one to talk" he said, gesturing to himself.

I laughed and stopped walking. When I turned to face him I saw the big smile he was wearing as we had fun bickering back and forth.

I crossed my arms and looked at him

"Just don't avoid me" I said to him and he smiled

"I don't" he chuckled and I gave him a look like I didn't believe him.
"I won't" he admitted, his tone getting more serious but the smile never left

I looked down and smiled. I uncrossed my arms and gave in. I couldn't keep up the fake attitude and anger. He had such a way of pulling me out of it.

Even though I wasn't sure why he decided to care all the sudden, I didn't really think about it for the rest of the night. I just enjoyed hanging out with my friends.

As for JJ and I talking in the group... we'll that didn't really happen. But he wasn't completely ignoring me the way he'd done before. He would look at me and laugh at things I said or comment off of them. It was progress so that's all that really mattered.