Not me || JJ Maybank

How gay are you?

Bens POV

Me and Sarah got back to the chateau and she saw everyone out at the dock and got excited.

"You can go. I'll go put these up inside" I offered

"Are you sure?" She asked sweetly

"Yea of course" I said. It really was no problem.

"Okay thanks Ben" she smiled and ran out to the dock.

I brought the few bags Inside and sat them on the counter. I was alone in the house putting up the groceries when the door opened.

My eyes widened at first and I was starring, but I quickly caught myself.

"Hey" I said to the blond boy at the entrance

"Hey" he replied and I continued putting away the food.

He didn't say anything as he came and sat down at the barstool and just watched me.

I looked over at him and saw him examining me. I tried to ignore it and started putting away the cold things first

"So how gay are you?" He asked me, bluntly.

My face scrunched with confusion.

"Excuse me?" I asked, raising and eyebrow. I wasn't one to get an attitude..but I was  genuinely confused

"Like- are you really gay?" He asked suspiciously

"Uhmm.." I said facing him and taking food out of a grocery bag slowly. "Yeaa.."

"I was just askin y'know" he shrugged, his voice getting defensive "me and kie y'know we're kinda talkin again so.. just wanted to make sure I had nothing to worry about with you two"

"What?" I asked

"Yea cuz you and Kie are really close so-" he started

"No, wait..." I cut him off "y'all are getting back together?"

"Well, not yet" he said. I could hear the insecurities in his voice "but like we're talking like that again y'know, so"

"Didn't you.." I said slowly "cheat on her?"

He paused and looked at me

"That's non of your business" he snapped at me "who even told you about that"

I looked around at the air awkwardly as I pretended not hear that question

"Look it doesn't matter" he shook his head, erasing the thought "I just need to make sure that we won't have a problem"

I might have scoffed a little but played it off as a laugh

"Well, I'm definitely gay" I said, playfully looking back at him as I put away the last box of cereal

"Like how gay?" He asked one more time to make sure

"I don't like girls" I said slowly as if I were talking to a toddler

He laughed a little at my sarcasm

"You have nothing to worry about" I reassured "don't think it's you who should be worrying though" I mumbled

"What?" He asked, confronting me and getting up

"What?" I said, pretending like I didn't say anything

"That was a mistake" he said, getting closer to me and pointing with his finger a little bit

"Ok" I shrugged innocently

"I'm serious" he said but I wasn't having his bs

"Ok, I believe you" I shrugged again

"It was an accident." He said, getting in my face and his voice getting louder

"You.. accidentally cheated on her?" I asked sarcastically. staying calm the whole time.

"That was a year ago and you weren't even here for that!" He said angrily "stop acting like you know what happened"

I just looked at him calmly, hoping he'd be embarrassed by acting like a child

I think it worked because he calmed down after that. I went back to what I was doing and ignored him as he moved back around to the other side of the counter where he was originally.

...

"Im not.. a bad person" he said like he was upset with himself but was trying not to show it

I paused for a minute

"I never said you were a bad person, JJ" I said to him and he looked up at me

"But you think it" he said

"What does it matter to you what I think" I challenged. He was stumped. I could tell he didn't know how to respond to that. I guess he didn't really have a reason.

"It doesn't" he said eventually, trying to brush it off.

For his sake I decided to drop it. I don't know why he got so upset for a second there.

He started walking off towards the door but I couldn't let him leave like that. With us on bad terms

"JJ" I said and he turned back to look at me "don't.. don't hurt her again"

He looked at me with mildly sad eyes

He smiled a little and nodded his head before leaving for good this time.

I didn't know how to feel about that.

I didn't like it. I didn't like the idea of them being back together. I- I don't know. It shouldn't bother me.

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