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i thought about him a lot, i've been thinking about him
ever since that day i think about him, i'm always keeping up on his life and how he's doing

i haven't talked to any of them even jack, which pokes at me once in awhile but it's been almost a year and i'm trying to heal and take my time but it gets difficult when you had to leave the one person you truly loved

and possibly still do

every time when i'm so close to drifting off to sleep i think about that one moment when we listened to pretty boy and sang to each other

speaking of sleep, i've seriously got to get up

i get up from my bed and get ready for the day, i had to record a new song earlier and then go to a interview right after

i go downstairs and eat something,maybe look at old pictures from half a year ago reminiscing those times

i then realized what time it was and went straight to the studio

"okay vee we are gonna start with the chorus go ahead when your ready" my producer says

i nods and sang

I never should have called
'Cause I knew you would leave me
But I didn't think you could do it so easily
I never should have held your hand
On that cold rainy night
'Cause, further along, it would cause another fight Stranger, that's all I see" i sang

the songs about him, pretty obvious but it's one of my coping mechanisms, just letting it out

"great that was amazing try the bridge of the song now when your ready" he says and i nod again

"When I look into your eyes
A soulmate who wasn't meant to be
Stranger, who knows all my secrets
Can pull me apart and break my heart
A soulmate who wasn't meant to be" i sang

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"alright that's all for today vee, thanks i'll send you the recording samples just let me know what you think" he says

"great i'll see you later then" i say as i leave

now i was on my way to this interview podcast thing called 'call her daddy' i've heard she really goes deep into the questions so i guess that's fun

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"hi! omg it's literally so exciting to meet you! i'm alex" she says and hugs me

"hi nice meeting you too i'm veerena but you can call me vee" i smile at her

she seemed pretty nice

"alright before we start i'm gonna show you the question script and just let me know what questions you don't want to be asked" she says

i looked at the paper and there was 3 questions about him and i thought about it for a second should i talk about it? maybe it'll get to far
you know what fuck it

"i'm fine with all of these honestly" i laugh
she laughs too

"okay you can sit over here in this comfy little couch and we will get started right now" she says as she sat infront of me

bold= alex
normal= vee

"what's up daddy gang and welcome back to a new episode of call her daddy!, im here with a very special guest everyone give it up for ms vee valentine!"

"what's up guyssss"

"i heard this was your first ever podcast, how do you feel? do you feel uncomfortable? weird? tell us"

"i was a little nervous but i think i already have gotten used to it honestly, this couch is pretty comfy too so that's a bonus"

"alright so since this is your first call her daddy episode i just wanted to let you know that this is a safe place, you free to share anything you want to be shared out there, and we will get into deep conversations about the questions i'm about to ask you"

"alrighty let's get into it then".

"okay, vee how does it feel to have such a big platform and audience supporting you throughout your journey?"

"it's honestly super surreal, i'm super grateful for what i have today, you know i wasn't really a social person before all of this happened but now i feel that it took a really big positive effect on me because without my fans and my career i wouldn't have been the person i am today"

"that's so sweet i'm glad you acknowledge your fans"

"yeah their the best thing life has ever given me"

"so we know that you grew up in texas for almost your whole life with both of your parents, tell me how your parents were like as you grew up"

"my parents were fucking badasses man,they tried their best to make me and my siblings happy even with our money struggles back then they still managed to squeeze in time for us, my parents are the best they are the main reason i'm a independent person majority of the time"

"speaking of independent we know that you were in a relationship with vinnie hacker a couple months ago, how was that?"

"well, um vinnie was a great guy and we both had a relatively strong connection towards each other, but i mean good things don't always last"

"did you and vinnie ever had any complications?"

"yeah we did, but at the end of the day he still holds a very, very, very special place in my heart, i genuinely wish him the absolute best, i hope he is really getting what he should've deserved"

"was he your first genuine heartbreak?"

"...well...i will admit he was,i felt so attached to him and i feel like that's the reason was i struggled so much to get over it and to move on,sometimes i think about him and where we would've been today, like today we would've went to the beach because of the amazing weather today, you know it's just i think about the little things"

"do you ever think you'll be with him in the future?"

"i cant be for sure,but i hope i atleast have some sort of positive connection towards him in the future, and if not i'm completely find with it, again i wish him the best"

"there are rumors going around that your new single is about him, is that true?"

"i'm gonna be so straight up, i wrote that song while i was healing from it so some of the lyrics aren't as accurate compared to how i feel today but to answer your question yes it is about him"

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the call her daddy episode came out today and i am so excited, i couldn't wait to let the people know how i feel

i felt my phone buzz while i was watching the new episode

maybe: vinnie 🖤
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vinnie
can we meet up and talk?
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