A game of hearts || Chishiya Shuntaro

Chapter 7: the reunion||

Song: heart to heart-mac deMarco

Visa days: 8

I go straight to bed even though I don't sleep. This is a routine now. That I don't sleep after games I mean. It's not that the deaths affect it me, it's just that I feel like I should be traumatized.

I should feel horrible after seeing so many people die. I should be depressed, but I'm not. Why aren't I? Every human being should feel something at least. I only feel empty.

My whole body feels like a black hole. Nothing. Empty.

And with these thoughts I fall asleep sooner or later.

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I wake up with the sun shining through my curtains. I wonder what I'll do this day. I'm actually considering playing a new game. I can't lie, so I actually don't hate the games. I'm not saying that I like them, but I do actually think that they're better than just sitting around in a dark apartment.

I get up and head straight for the kitchen. As usual I take a look outside to see what the time is. It's at least two hours past noon, so I'm guessing the time is about two or three.

I wash my face and I realize that I don't have much water left. I should maybe get more tonight, but playing a game is a lot more entertaining. I must sound like a psychopath. Maybe I am?

I decide to try out the camping stove I got and make some soup. I've never used a camping stove before so it'll definitely be a challenge. I get the gas can and attach it to the main stove. I try turning on different things and after some time I manage to make the soup.

I chose the tomato-soup. It has always been my favorite. I put it in a bowl and I take some crackers on the side. I feel like I'm eating crackers all the time, but they're good and so easy to just snack on.

I sit at my table eating in silence. The silence is so weird. It's like so loud, but still completely quiet. Sometimes I've considered talking to myself. Both to make it less quiet, but also that my voice don't get all shaky and stuff.

After I've eaten I go to clean myself and change clothes. I actually take my time to wash my hair a bit. I take a wet cloth and clean my body. I brush my teeth and change into some clean clothes. I decide to put on a black shorts and a white hoodie.

I take my dirty clothes and use up the rest of the water to clean them. The clothes from yesterdays game has some blood on them. After that I take a look outside and I'm guessing it's still two hours till the games are starting.

I go to a place I haven't been in a while. My bookshelf. It's not that I don't like reading, but I've never had time for it. When you have an apartment and a brother to take care of you don't get too much time to do what you want.

I look at the many different books I have. I take a closer look at some of them and I end up with a romantic book that my mom got me. The cover is red with light pink hearts on it and in the middle there's a silhouette of a guy and a girl standing on a rooftop.

I sit down on my couch and start reading it. Nothing really happens in the beginning, but quite soon the book has me in a chokehold.

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I forget the time and I'm completely lost in the book. Only when I realize that it's completely dark and the stars have taken over the sky, I get back to the reality. I jump of the couch and run straight out. I find my bike and start biking as fast as I can to the closest game arena.

It's the water park. Well, that sounds like fun. I lay my bike in the grass and head for the phone-table. When I get closer I feel someone staring at me. I look up and I meet some worried brown eyes, that I have seen a million times before.

"Yasu".