A game of hearts || Chishiya Shuntaro

Chapter 3: alone in Tokyo||

Song: chamber of reflection-mac deMarco

Visa days: 3.

I sit at the bed for a few minutes, just taking in everything that has happened the last two hours. I stare into the wall in front of me, completely lost in my own thoughts.

When I realize that the crazy people might still be a threat, I decide to stand up and leave. I walk slowly and quietly down the stairs. When I reach the sixth floor I see something or someone laying in the stairs.

I walk closer to try to see what it is. When I get closer I see the young girl. She has a hole through her head and I can see traces of blood from her eyes. I take a step back and look away. I need a moment to collect myself. When I can breath normally again I close my eyes and quickly step over the body.

All I want is to get away from here so I run down the stairs. I need fresh air. I need to be able to breathe again. I storm out the entrance door and the second I'm outside I take a deep breath. It feels amazing having the fresh air in my lungs.

I close my eyes and just breath for a few second. Then a cold wind blows and I get shivers. I still only have my thin jacket. The coldness makes me drift home.

I put on my hood and put my hands in my pocket. I wish I had my cassette player here. Why did I leave it behind in the apartment? The only thing I hear now is my own steps and the wind blowing.

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I lose control over the time, so I have no idea how long time I used to get back to my apartment. I quickly lock open the door and step inside. Even though there's not many people here I still lock the door.

I take off my shoes and jacket and step into the living room. There's freezing here in the apartment as well, since we don't have much of a heating system. I go to the bathroom preparing to shower, when I realize that the showers doesn't work. "Fuck" I sigh.

I walk into my room and grab a big hoodie. I pull it over my head and go to sleep in it. I lay in my bed staring at the ceiling. I'm not tired. Or I think I am, I just can't sleep. There's too many thoughts occupying my head.

How can I survive in a world like this? What do I need to survive? Should I play a game tomorrow since I don't have a long visa? Do I need to get some stuff from the mall? Should I team up with someone? Or stay alone?

I feel lonely. It's not weird considering the amount of people who's in town right now. I have too many questions and no one to talk to them about. It's not like I would talk to anyone except my brother about these questions. I've only ever talked to him about important things. Without him here, it's going to be hard, but I don't want him to be here either.

All I know is that this world is going to be gruesome and horrifying and full of death. But I've experienced death before. I'm not saying it's going to be easy, but without anyone I care about here, I won't struggle too much to see people die.

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After hours of thinking I finally fall asleep. The night wasn't exactly perfect. It was the opposite actually. I had some pretty unpleasant dreams. But it's not my first time getting nightmares.

When I woke up the sun was shining through my curtains. I laid in bed for a few minutes debating whether I should stand up or just lay here. After a good ten minutes of thinking I decide to wake up. I'm still wearing the clothes I wore at yesterday's game. I go to the bathroom and change into some cleaner clothes.

While I brush my hair and get ready I think about what I should do today. I have to go and get some water since the tap and shower doesn't work. I also want to watch some game arenas. I guess I could just stand in the shadows a bit further away and see if there's anything important happening.

I go the kitchen and I'm immediately met with a disgusting smell. The smell of rotten food. Well, I guess I have found my first task of the day then. I open the fridge and put everything nasty in a bag. I then take the bag outside and throw it in a trash can.

I believe time works different here. Since food are rotting and that guy at yesterday's game had definitely been here for more than a day. This world or country or whatever it is is getting more and more confusing.

I go into the kitchen and start searching for some food. A lot of it is rotten but I managed to find a can of some tomato beans and a bag of crackers. The juice I had in the fridge is surprisingly still good.

It's not a very luxurious meal but I've grown up with plenty of shitty meals so it's fine. I think I have to go to the mall or something and get some supplies.

I eat my food in silence. Before I always ate breakfast with Yasu but not now of course. I'm not sure if hate or love the silence. I've always liked to be alone but not like this. This is just lonely. And I think the problem is that I don't have a choice. I have to be alone.

Since the silence gets unbearable I grab my cassette player and play some music. Everything feels a lot less lonely when I have the music on.

I have to get some water and I have to go to the mall and get some supplies, but I slept pretty long so I don't think I have time to do both today. And it's important that I get time to spy on some game arenas today.

I put on my white Nike sneakers and I decide to not wear a jacket since it's pretty hot outside. I go out and lock the door behind me. For few seconds I just stand outside. Feeling the fresh air in my lungs and the sun burning my skin.

I start walking to a park that near by. I know that it's a river there where I can get water. The walk is relaxing. The weather is amazing and since I brought my cassette player the silence isn't unbearable.