Confuse Love

10- lost control

Bible

After dinner i and mile go to see our guide. We plan to change our plan. I dont think all all my team have energy to walk down the mountain. All of us really tired and some of us tired. Its really suprise when bright still can walk and play around. I really think he will be sleeping all night long. So he is tough guy mile said. Yup but clumsy i said. Its already late when i back to my room and i become worry because i cant see bright in our room.  With tired body i look for him worry for his safety.  After half an hour i hear his voice at the garden. I cant believe my eyes when he happily talking with the guy from the foreigner group.  I dont know why but i am getting angry. With all the anger i go to him and call him coldly. He look at me and smile, casually introduce his new friend. After getting him to our room i stop walking and want to leave him because i dont want to show him this side of me. Its not a big argument. Both of us talk with calm manner but i know every words we said are sharper than blade. I leave him alone because i dont want to hurt him more.

After i felt calm i walk to our room with intention to ask for forgiveness for my rude word. I dont mean it.  Aftet knocking i slowly open the door and i felt like crazy when i cant see any trace of him. He neatly folded my sweetshirt and put it on the bed. I start calling him but his phone was turn off. I run to the receiptionist with the hope he got another room. After i got the info i immediately call mile. I know pete and apo are too tired now. Its okay, he will be find. Maybe someone already pick him up mile said. We keep searching for him and i finally ask the guide for help. After getting ready for jungle trekking apo said, have you check public transport area. He might be waiting for someone there apo said. I look at mile and run to the bus stop at parking lot area. I nearly punch george but hold by mile.  Hey cool man, he is safe here he said and show me bright who are sleeping on the chair with blanket. He refuse my help and i felt worry that why i come back to check on him. I know he lie about his friend will pick him up george said.  Mile calmly said thank you for george help.
I walk to him and call him softly. He look so uncomfortable. I touch his forhead and be is burning. I quickly lift and bring him to our room.  I dont care about george anymore, i just want he safe and happy like usual. I  extremely angry with myself. When he weakly reject me make feel like sinner. When plead apo i felt like dying. When he said he dont want to see me i felt i cant breath. Apo grab my shoulder and i quickly lift him from bath tup. Leave us alone i said. With shaking hand i change his cloth and let him sleep. After all that i bring him to apo room and nursing him all night. When the day become brighter george come to visit and patiently for him.