Confuse Love

13- Happy

Bible

I look at bright who now happily play with the wave. He is cute and sweet guy. I can believe he easily forgive me.  After that inccident i felt really guilty. I am expecting him to be more demanding but looking at him now i finally understood he just straight foward simple boy and very careless. He is in his own world and assumed everyone are revolving around him. That why he behave like a kids and easy going. We cant trace any superstar attitude when he is with us. He just a simple person with a big dream. The superstar we always see left on the stage every time he end his stage. Its not easy to pull that off but he do it gracefully. I am a bit sorry because of prejudice i have before.
I only can sigh when i think of my cousin. I really dont know how to handle this. Deep inside my heart i know nunew is not for him. Before i am worry he will play with my cousin because of his popularity, now i am sure he cant handle my naughty cousin who look so soft and sweet. I really dont know. Both are sweet and need protection. I never thought i felt this way. I am really worry.

Phi, he call me. I smile to him. Are you okay, what are you thinking, i call you a few times he said getting annoyed.  I just shook my head and ask him what he want. Sit here bright, lets wait for sunset i said. He nod and sit beside me. I felt my heart stop beating when he suddenly put his head on my shoulder.  I love it here phi, so peace and calm. I am so jelous of your family right now because all of this peaceful and beautiful view are  exclusively for  them he said . You can visit again if you want i said.  Really, thank you phi, but once is enough. I know my place he said and slowly laugh. I mean it, just inform me i said again. Again he laugh and not response to that.
He keep taking video and picture. You know phi every sunset is different even you see it at the same place. So we need to appreciate each of it he said. I just keep quiet and look at him.
Are you this easy to please i ask him. Omg what have i done i scold myself. How could i ask him just like that. Yup he reply without any thought. I know money and fame are important but i think i really can live without it like i used too he said. Sometime i ask myself,  why i easily happy with every simple things he said. Maybe that why its take me ten years to reach this stardom right now he said and slowly laugh. And what make it more irony, i am not into this superstar thing. I wish my fans can see me as a person with strenght and weaknesess. I love what i have now it just sometime i felt i am not worthy he said again.  Bright, everyone who work hard like you deserve all recognition and loves from their fans. We know how hard we work for this and its not come to us easily. So you also deserve it i said and look at his eyes. He just smile and put his head on my shoulder back looking at the wave silently.

Bright about nong nunew, i try to talk about it. But his reaction is totally differ with what i expect. I am tired now, can we go back to our room he ask me. I am speechless, so i can nod and walk behind him. What happen to his courting. Is he really dissapointed with me. I dont know why, but far in my heart i felt a bit relieve but at the same time i felt guilty.
Is it okay for us to sleep together i ask him. I am okay but if you are uncomfortable you can leave me here he said very slow. Bright dont misunderstand, phi dont want you felt force or uncomfortable, we have other room here so you have a choice i said clearly. I am okay, you can go to other room he said and walk into bathroom. He leave me with that sentence. I am really confuse. He is unpredictable. I really cant read what in his mind. Is he want me to stay or leave. After waiting for a few moment i finally leave the room. I really confuse.

I walk to the resort cafe and ask the chef to prepare a dinner for us. Right now i dont know weather he will eat with me or not. I slowly go back to his room. Its still early to sleep, so i thought it will be better for us to hang around together before dinner. I slowly open the door and cant see him anywhere. I look at the bathroom but it was empty. Not again i said worrily. Then i heard a movement at the balcony. I slowly walk to him and look he is sitting by the pool. I can see from his gesture he is wiping his tears. I quickly go to him. What wrong bright i ask him. What happen i ask him when he look at me with glitering eyes.  He just shook his head. Tell phi, why are you crying i ask him and sit beside him. Nothing he said and smile at me sadly.
What are you doing here phi he ask me try to be cheerful. But i can felt he is pretending right now. I am here to hang out with you. I just come back from the cafe to ask them for dinner. Do you want to have it here or at cafe i ask him. Really he ask me happily. I nod and look at him with so much in my mind. Can we have it here phi he ask me.