My first puppy love triangle

Chapter 8

After my friendship with Emerson went down the drain. I began having the same issues with miles. Sometimes he would message me, sometimes he wont and whenever he would message me it would take days for him to reply. Then he would pretend like nothing happened and call me all these flirtatious names. As the days went by things began to turn between us. All of a sudden he would suddenly care about my well being, ask me about my day at work, send me good morning/night text. It went on like that for awhile until the day I accidentally confessed to him.

As we were messaging i asked him if Linsey did ever said anything about me liking him. As for him he didn't know i liked him and that Linsey never told him that i liked him. So as i read his response i quickly regret telling him. After that he asked me since when, what did i liked about him and if i still like him. I had to be honest with him and i told him that i liked him since freshman year, i liked his personality and that my feelings for him were still mutual. After i told him the truth he confessed that he liked me since freshman year as well, he liked how funny i can be and that his. Feelings were also mutual.

As he told me that i felt nervous since I've never have confessed my feelings to a guy before. After the accidental confession happened he admitted to me that the reason why he never asked me out was because he was afraid of ruining our friendship and because of jay. He was afraid of my brother on what he might do if he would hurt me. I was actually shocked hearing him say that. after a while of messaging i told him that i had to go since i was getting ready for work. He agreed and said for me to have an amazing day. I wished him the same and put my phone inside my scrub pockets and left to work.

After work  i headed home, as i got home I receive a text message from miles. Good afternoon babe says miles, i look at the message shocked that he called me babe. As we began to talk he continue calling me flirtatious nicknames. It went on like that for awhile until i had to know if he really did wanted to be more than friends or just be a side girl. I was afraid to ask him but this was going too far especially since he was confusing me. I didn't even know what we were friends or lovers without strings attached.

I told Mia about it and she advice me to just end things with miles since it looks like he's just messing around with me. I felt like it was probably the best to end it but at the same time i did really liked him. But i also feel like he doesn't know what he wants. So i had to talk to him about it soon.

I decided to message miles and talk to him about it. Hey miles i feel like we need to talk about us? I say. Miles then replies, what about us?. I look at his message and nervously type what are we exactly? Are we friends? Are we lovers? Or am i just someone to kick it with. I reply. Miles takes about a minute and says, i honestly  would like to be more than friends but i honestly don't want to ruin my friendship with you. I want to take things slow with you since your someone special to me. I don't want us to end badly if we end up dating. This isn't making sense i thought to myself.  Then why do you call me all these nicknames, make plans for our future and even asked me if i would consider to be friends with benefits with you i reply. Miles then says, that's because I'm not ready to commit into a relationship. I thought that maybe having no string attach might of been a good idea for the both of us miles says.

I couldn't believe he just said that, all  This time i thought he wanted a relationship with me but all he wanted was to have intimacy without having any title. I felt emotionally used, it's time to end this with him. I took a deep breath and replied, your wrong i never wanted a no string relationship with you, all i wanted was a relationship with you but i see that's a mistake, I guess i was the only one who was willing to take the next step between us. But now that your true intentions came out I rather not have any sort of relationship with you. It was nice knowing you, i just hope you can find the right person without hurting them like you did to me. I send the message to miles and put my phone down.

I began to cry because it still hurt knowing that I ended things with miles but maybe just maybe it was the right thing to do. I deserved better and get treated better. It took about 4 weeks to move one but I eventually moved on.

As time passed by miles tried contacting me again but I continue to ignore his messages, I wasn't going to deal with him anymore. I met someone better, someone who actually cares  and treats me better. Im still afraid of getting hurt but i do trust him and I know he won't do anything to hurt me. At the end i did end up losing my two childhood crushes but i ended up with my better half my first true love.