Izindaba Zomhawu(Paused)

Chapter 17

LONDIWE

“ What's wrong sis? You've been awfully quiet since you got back from work.” , Kwazi says.

We're sitting on the couch eating icecream and watching his favourite,anime. It's something that we do every evening and I like sitting like this with him .

I sigh, “ Qhawe and I had a fight.”

I'm not even expecting him to give me relationship advice. What would a sixteen year old know about relationships anyways?

“ oh,  sorry to hear that. But you'll be fine sis, Qhawe loves you, he'll come around regardless of what you said to him.”, he says and winks.

“ bold of you to assume I've done something to make him mad.”, I say rolling my eyes.

“ You know how you are , you probably slapped the guy, I know you.”, he laughs and I join him.

“ Kante who's side are you on? Who's brother are you ?”, I fold my arms to my chest and I pout.

He laughs at me , “ I'm kidding, but for real though, you guys will be okay.”

“ I hope so.”

He puts the ice-cream tub on the small table  beside the couch and makes me lay my head on his shoulder. “ You'll be okay sis.”

“ Kwazi”, I say.

“ mhh?”

“ it's been over a month of you not going to school,I know I told them that you're getting help and you've finished writing but -”

He cuts me off, “ I want to go back to school sis but not in that school , I just can't.” , he says.

“ Kwazi , second term is fast approaching. If I can't find you another school you'll have to continue there for the rest of the year.”, I say to him and he exhales.

“ I'll go back if we can't find another school.”

I know that he hates that school but there's a possibility that we won't find another school for him . I just hope he'll cope.

I change the subject, “ So , how did your session with Ms Hudson go?”

“ It went very well. She told me she's proud of me.” , his face beams .

“ Really ! ”, I exclaim, matching his excitement.

“ Yes ,she gave me a mouthful about being extra gentle with myself and self-care  but isn't that self-care stuff gay though?”

“ Kwazi! No, everyone has to take care of themselves. Self-care is way beyond papering yourself and getting manicures you know.”, I say to him. Does he really thinks self-care is gay . Bathong!

“ Grooming is a part of self-care you know.”,  I say to him.

“ So what now? I should also get my nails done?”, he raises his eyebrow.

Oh nkosh! ,“ yes , but you'll opt for the manly manicure,unjani na wena?”, I laugh at him and he just looks confused making me laugh more.

We talk about self-care for a while.

“ I forgive him sisi.”, he blurts.

“ what?”

“ My sperm donor , I forgive him.” ,he sighs. “ I realised that there's not use holding onto that anger anymore. You believed me and that's all that matters. I forgive him and mom.”

“ That's very brave of you.”, I hug him.

But does this mean I'll have to call off Kwanele from finding him? 

QHAWE

“ Uyahlanya yini weQhawe? How could you sleep with that bitch Roxanne?”

My brother is livid. He throws another punch at me and I duck this time around.

“ Khaya ,chill! I know I made a mistake, okay!”

“ Mistake? You call that a mistake Qhawe? Did she mistakenly slip  on your dick and then you mistakenly cummed it her? Was that a fucking mistake!?” 

“ Cha bhuti.”, I look down. “ I know I fucked up , I'm remorseful of what I did.”

“ Yazini? Tommorow we're driving to her place and you're gonna tell her what you did, uyangizwa weQhawe?”

“ What? No , I'm not telling her, she's gonna dump me.”, I say . Khaya must be crazy if he thinks I'd do that .

“ What the fuck am I doing here in the middle of the night then?  Yazini...-”, He comes towards me and punches me again. I stumble back and fall on the couch. I reach for my nose and fuck! It's bleeding.

“ You stupid waste of sperm  made me drive all the way from my house, leaving my fiancee for this shit! Tell her before Roxanne does some stupid shit or else uzongazi kahle, you know I don't make empty promises.”, Khaya takes his keys from the table and leaves.

Great, My older brother just threatened to end my life!