Amiable || ~ n.s. ~

5. ~ more than just a change of heart ~

Joss's POV

Kayla and I are walking to the parking garage when I realize Noah doesn't have his car. It's still at the park. I start to feel bad about how I acted when we were talking
I always talk about how we shouldn't dwell on the past, and now I'm doing that. I guess I got mad when Joe whispered in my ear that I "liked Noah." He didn't deserve that.

"Kayla?"

"Mhm?"

"We need to find Noah. He has to get his car."

"He can't be to far away."

Eventually we find him, walking down the street. Wandering.

"Noah." I call out. He either doesn't hear me or ignores me. Probably the latter. "Noah." I call out again.

I rush behind him so he can't ignore me. "Noah." He turns.

"Joss what do you want?"

"I'm sorry for being so rude to you. You didn't deserve that. I also realized that your car is at the park and I couldn't let you leave like that."

"Look Joss, I appreciate your apology but you were right. Some things aren't forever."

Kayla chimes in. "Just let us drive you to your car. It's the least we could do."

"Okay. Whatever."

We walk back and get in the car and I start to feel worse and worse. Sometimes my sarcasm goes too far.

We quickly reach the park and I park next to Noah's car. I get out with him and I don't know why I'm folding. Sure he didn't deserve it but why am I so desperate to fight for him? Days ago I was roasting him.

When we reach his car it gets awkward. "Umm, do you want to talk sometime?" I'm clinging at this point.

"Okay, Joss not to be rude but less than an hour ago you basically told me to fuck off. And now you want to chat! I don't know what you want!" He's almost yelling when he finishes but his face quickly softens. I'm stunned but he has the right to be like that.

He takes a few steps forward and places his hand on my cheek. Butterflies fly. "I'm sorry I just screamed at you." He's genuine. He can't even be justifiably rude to some without acting like a gentleman. Why did he do that? I don't deserve his kindness! He has the right to be mad. Did I look like I was about to cry? What is happening?

"No no no." I pull away from his hand gently. "You have a right to be mad. I kept berading you and now I'm acting like it didn't happen but it did. And you didn't deserve that. I regret everything I've done in these past couple days. And I want to hang out with you. I was blinded by what happened before and I hate that I really do. Last night when we were at the store last night I forgot what happened in the past and it was just us. And I enjoyed it."

We don't speak more but he comes and hugs me. I'm surprised and then he whispers to me. "I'm sorry. For everything."

"I'm sorry too." And we leave it there. He gets in his car and drives away, smiling at me through the windshield.

I walk back to my car and Kayla is freaking out. "I thought it would end weird but then it didn't and you guys looked liked you were in a movie and that was better to watch then dance moms-"

I cut her off so she can't keep talking so quickly. "We just decided to move on."

"And hookup." She mumbles quietly.

"Excuse me?"

"Nothing."

"We're just friends. Nothing more. I told you I don't like him!"