Dabria

Chapter 52: Scared

~Dabria Esmeray Marciano

Burning. It burned my eyes, my back, my arm. It feels like I'm on fire but it's so different like I'm falling but I can't feel myself. Just falling. There are so many noises—voices and sounds. It feels so close yet I feel so far away. I frowned trying to look above but my eyes burn before the bright light that was glaring at me.

A sound left my lips when the burning turned into raging pain and stinging throughout my body. But my back burns, I'm trying to move but I can.

"It's okay. I'm here, slowly— I can hear someone, it's a familiar voice. But I don't remember it. My brows crowned on my forehead together at the blurry figure that was in front of me. But it helped my burning back. I opened my mouth to say something but I couldn't. A cold object touched my lips but I could feel it's glass. I gulp down the water. I sigh left my lips as I focused my vision causing the blurry to go away.

"Drystan" whispering I looked at him. He was sitting on the edge of the bed. "Fucking don't think of leaving me again." He said so coldly but a smile marched my lips. "I won't" I promised. But my eyes grew moist as I looked at him thoroughly. I raised my arm touching his face. His cheeks—my thumb rubbing over his cheek. His eyes—those green eyes that's always filled with love for me. his nose—the nose I've kissed so many times. His lips—that makes me smile everytime. I take in his face. I was so scared that i will lose him. I won't see him again.

I was ready to die but not before I kissed him goodbye. My chest tightened, taking in a deep breath I moved my hand down on his hand. Taking his palm in my hands, his big warm hands. Threading our fingers together I let my tears fall. I brought our tangled hands up to my lips as I kissed the back of his palm. I didn't dare to look at him. Fearing that he would see that I was ready to die that now I've tasted his love. The deep and warm love he has shown me.

"Baby" I heard his voice, so vulnerable and loving. The request in them as so did I fulfilled it. Raising my gaze I met his eyes. Another tear slide down my face watching his own falling down his face. "I was so scared." His words were only for me to hear. I shook my head tugging at his hand. He scotted closer. "I was so fucking scared that I would lose you—I" he stopped shaking his head. I squeezed his hand kissing it again. "It left like someone ripped my heart right through, burned it down and returned the ashes back to me. But every moment that passed by I felt those ashes slipping away."  He looked so scared. But it made my chest tightened. I felt blessed for having him. I tugged at his hand again and looked at him with my blurry eyes.

I small smile formed on his lips as he crushed me down in his arms. My hand around his back I kissed his cheek, his temple his nose. I held him as tight as I could. His hands tightened around me holding me in his warmth. His hands rubbed over my hair. And the heat of his body and comfort in his arms I felt myself slipping off. "I love so much drystan." I mumered before I closed my eyes.

...

When I opened my eyes, I was scared that all of would be a dream or worse my imagination but those thoughts vanished when the warmth of drystan's hand crawled up my arm sending a delight shiver up my spine. He was looking at me like I would disappear any second, his brows crowned upon his forehead. I smiled at him lightly. "Were you staring me at like a creep all this time?" I tried to joke but my smile faltered when he nodded his head.

Placing a hand on top of his I asked "what happened?" But he didn't said anything he just looked at me. Suddenly he leaned down and kissed me. His soft lips gently molding our lips together. The sweet pleasure of his lips on mine made the back of my hair stand. Pulling back he closed his eyes exhaling. "I was just so scared." I gave him an understanding nod.

The hospital door opened slowly causing it to creek lightly. Amara was standing there with Alex behind him and I could make out two other figures also. Her cheeks were stained with dried tears as she tottered her way to me. Drystan sighed kissing my forehead and stood up walking over the couch placed against the wall beside me.

She sat down at the edge of the bed. I shook my head but she gave me a nod as laughed through her tears. "You know me so fucking well bri" she croaked out.  "It was terrifying—seeing you there...the way—"

"I know it wasn't a pleasant sight but it's over now." I cut her short and hugged her. "There's a recovery gift for you in the basement also." She whispered. A laugh bubbled out of me as she winked and sat down beside drystan.

"Bri!" I laughed again as Leon threw himself at me, wincing slightly I hugged him back. "You little shit you scared the fuck out of me." I could help but laugh at adore his words. Adore all of them who care for me. A hand on mine made me look up. Alex stood there and watched me with a frown on his face. "He loves you." My eyes softened my hands tightened around his as I gave him an assuring nod.

From the corner of my eyes I watched luke, who stood in the corner of the room. "Out everyone." I ordered and saw them through questioned glances my way. Yet they complied. "Luke stay back." He gave me a jerkey nod before his cornered himself again.

I sighed as I patted the empty place beside my bed. He looked at me doubtfuly before slowly walking towards the bed before he sat down. I could see guilt and shame written all over his face. He was ashamed of what his father did. "Luke—" he cut me off before.

"I know what you're going to say dabria, and I couldn't accept that. He—he did all this and I can't look in your eyes without the always ticking Reminder that he was the one who did this to you." My shoulders tensed as I watched him carefully. "Who told you it was him."

"He told me, when we were tieing him and the rest of them in the basement, he looked so proud and fucking happy for what he did." I nod at him. Before my eyes sharpened.

" It wasn't you fault, it was your father's deed and he will pay for it. In this empire of mine. We don't judge you for your parents sins. We condemn on your betrayals. So I need you to stop sulking and blame yourself for what happened. This empire needs people like you."

He gave me another nod, still not looking at me. "Look at me Luke." I ordered him and watched as he looked at me with blurry eyes and I small smile on his face. I leaned forward and hugged him. "Don't forget we use to play as kids together." I felt his chest viberate before he pulled back. "I'll always be at your service donna." His eyes pledged his words. And I smiled to myself,

The war was at the end.