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apartment C13, west side group chat

gyuvin is STUPID
what the fuck kinda chaos erupted
in this groupchat? 50+ messages?!?

reply to mr mattchu
.... why did u read my diary.

yujin
HYUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hyung pls come home :D

ricky
hyung ur back :)

gyuvin is STUPID
stop it

why did you guys read my diary

i told you guys i'm going out today,
there's nothing to worry about,
and you guys tried to investigate????

Zhang Hao
We were just worried about you because
of what you said to Yujin and Ricky,
Taerae.

gyuvin is STUPID
you guys could've just asked!

besides, it's almost lunch time. i'm on
my way home, and i did what i promised

you guys don't have to pry into my life
like we're any closer than what we are now.

ricky
what are you trying to say? that we're not
close enough to care about you, hyung?

gyuvin is STUPID
not that, fuck

it's hard to explain, and the last thing i want
is to argue because we're going to get
absolutely nowhere.

but please, don't look through my personal
things again. if you want to know, then
please just properly ask.

Zhang Hao
but would you even really tell us?

Think about it. You practically implied
something bad, Taerae. What are we
to think?

gyuvin is STUPID
hao hyung. i wasn't implying shit.

maybe that's something reflected
on your own fears, but i am FINE.

Zhang Hao
well, fuck you too, taerae.

we CARED, and i thought that's what
you'd want. for someone to care.

I HATE TAERAE 2
can we please not fight?

mr. mattchu
agreed, please, let's stop

Zhang Hao
be quiet, hyung.

I HATE TAERAE 2
I mean it, Hao

talk in person. unresolving your issues
over text is meaningless and fucking
stupid. you guys are acting like kids.

gyuvin is STUPID
fine, sorry.

but if you really want to know,
because you're testing my trust, hao hyung,
i went to go visit my friend.

it's his death anniversary today. it's been
four years since he died, and i visit him often
enough that it's like he never did. his name's
junhyeon. i wouldn't have... made the decision
to even search for living houses if he didn't die.

so butcher me all you want, saying i implied the
wrong things, that i'm uncaring for your feelings,
but if i didn't care, i wouldn't have sent
those messages or even break out of
my comfort zone to meet you guys.

yujin
hyung...

gyuvin is STUPID
i'm not coming home tonight, actually.

i need time to reflect, think, and all that shit.

please do not text me, do not go
through my things, and do not try and apologize.
i know you don't mean it, hao hyung,
unless we speak in person.

you have left the groupchat.

gunwo_okie

hyung >:(

don't even gunwook

hyunggg >:(

gunwook.

fine, fine

i'm just glad you're here, and
you're speaking to me

why wouldn't i?? although i may
have blown up at hao hyung, u
haven't done anything wrong yet

yet!?!??

wooooooooow

anyway, have some patience with
them, ok?? they all mass texted me
wondering if i knew where you went

i get it, but they went thru my things.

don't you think that's a violation of
privacy!?!??!

yeah yeah, but they did it to know
if you're okay or not. i mean, who in
their right mind turns off their phone
completely to go to a cemetery

a lot of people, actually

ok but u? of all people

yeah, i guess i should see it
eye to eye

i'm just mad

today was supposed to be a happy day

why? because of his death anniversary?

...yeah, because he's in a better place

well, if he's happy, shouldn't you be as well?

who says i'm not?

cmon, hyung, i know you practically
better than most of them. i can tell that
you're upset about his death. if he's happy
and moving on in a better place, it's time for
you to continue seeing him in happier lights.

sure, you may say ur happy, but when you think
of him, you're crying. that's how grieving works,
but you're simply not accepting it the way most
do

i may not get it like you do because i
have yet to lose someone crazy
close to me, but i know you enough
to say that you have people around you
who can help you

you just have to open up a bit of your heart
and let us in c:

did you learn to smile like that from ricky

perhaps, but don't change the subject

ughh

FINE!! ur so annoying. are you back in town yet

yes, i actually just arrived.
should we go get some food?

yes pls. we can talk about this in person

send me the location, hyung! c:

gosh... >:(