It's Always Been You (Miraculous Ladybug Future)

IX

｡*ﾟ+.*.｡Hugo｡*ﾟ+.*.｡

It's another Monday at school and me and my friends are sitting in the back of the classroom. Cécile is excitedly telling us about a party a girl in our class is planning for the end of the school year. I, however, can't pay attention.

Ever since I saw the picture of Sara and Paul at the park last Friday, I can't think straight. I think my parents have noticed I'm acting weird, too, because they asked me if I needed anything last night. I told them I was fine, that that they shouldn't worry. I guess Chat Noire is the only person I've talked to sincerely about it. Also Tikki, at late hours at night.

I've written a few songs about it, and afterwards stuffed them in the biology notes pile.

The bell rings after what seems like an eternity and I hurry out, saying goodbye to everyone. I hope they don't think I'm acting strange. If anyone asks, I'll say I had to urgently help my mom with something.

Except, when I arrive home, she's the one who helps me. When I arrive home, she sits me down on the living room couch and looks at me worriedly. "Hugo, what's wrong? I've noticed you're acting more... mopey than usual."

"I... I don't know." I try to play it off.

She smiles sadly. I don't like seeing her worried, especially about me. "Okay. You know you can tell me anything, right?"

I nod.

She starts to get up to leave, but I stop her. "Wait, maman..." I realize that in this moment I really need someone to talk to, and my siblings aren't around right now to distract her. I can be honest about everything, she's my mom. Hell, she was Ladybug.

"Yes, Love?"

"There's this girl in my class that I like, Sara, the one you met that night." I start. She nods, so I keep going. "I've felt this way since I met her, and, well, a few days ago Aaron sent me a picture of her kissing another guy."

She sighs. She thinks for a second. "Hugo, I know you feel frustrated and sad right now."

"I do..."

"But you have to remember she must have feelings for that other boy, and that's something we must respect and keep in mind. It's hard but when the person we love loves someone else, we can't do anything about it other than cheer for them."

"Okay." I say.

Later that evening, I think about her words. If Sara likes Paul, I can't do anything about it except hope that one day things change. I could also try to think of her as just a friend, I mean, we've known each other for more than three months now. I wonder what she considers me. A friend? A good friend? Definitely nothing more.

I lay back on my bed and sigh. Why am I so unlucky in love?

I can't count how many girls I've liked over the years, however I've only had one relationship, Léa. And that was fake, apparently. When I found out she cheated on me, I spent a week hiding out in my room. Only Aaron and Emma would come in to talk to me.

And then Sara came along. During the first months, I thought that maybe she liked me back. But it's the beginning of April, and she's so far kissed a guy that's not me. Why do I still have the strange hope that she may still like me?

I just want to scream, "This is absurd!".

｡*ﾟ+.*.｡Sara｡*ﾟ+.*.｡

We're nearing the end of the school year and I couldn't be happier. This has all been a rollercoaster, I'm lucky to have had a best friend like Cécile with me.

There's a party in a month at Odette's house to celebrate, the whole grade is going. I can't wait to go with all my friends.

Talking about friends... I've been avoiding Hugo lately. Why? Because I've come to the conclusion that I have feelings for him. It's all twisted and messy and weird right now, though. About a month ago Paul tried to kiss me and I backed away, and ever since then I've been trying to play it off cool. He still acts cold to me, and brushes me off sometimes. Other times we have small conversations in groups of people, but it won't be like how it used to be again. And honestly, I don't mind.

Meanwhile, I've been trying to figure out my feelings for Hugo. I've made a list of the pros and cons liking him has:

Pros:

- He's an amazing person

- Can and WILL help me with physics

- Really good looking

- Knows how to cook (he told me once)

Cons:

- He's in my friend group??

- I'm kinda awkward when I'm with him

I always feel better when I make a list of pros and cons. But I think for now I'm gonna keep avoiding him, just until I have things figured out.

That evening I call Cécile. "Hey!"

"Hi! So... are you finally going to tell me the reason why you've been ignoring Hugo?" She asks. Cécile has definitely noticed what has been happening, and asked me about it earlier.

"The thing is, I think I have feelings for him."

Cécile gasps audibly through the phone. "I knew it!"

"And I'm so confused between this and what happened with Paul."

"Yeah..."

"Céci... is my crush on Hugo really that obvious?" I ask concerned. What if he knows? I would pass simply pass away.

"Girl, it's definitely obvious. Why else would you have been avoiding him?"

Oh no.

｡*ﾟ+.*.｡Hugo｡*ﾟ+.*.｡

Sara has been avoiding me and I don't know why. I asked Cécile at school and she said she didn't know what I was talking about. Weird.

There can be a few reasons why she's been avoiding me. Maybe she doesn't want to be my friend anymore, or she's tired of me. Perhaps she found out about my crush on her. Oh no, that would be mortifying. I hope it's not because of that, I would die of embarrassment. Literally.

I should calm down. Cécile says she hasn't noticed anything out of the ordinary, nor Aaron. I'm probably overthinking it again. I should just forget about it.

But it's so hard to ignore a girl like her. Superficially, and I hate using this word, but she's hot. Just the way she ties up her hair in class makes me feel sweaty, and when she bends down to pick something up and brushes against me I feel... things that I'm not sure I'm supposed to feel.

But more internally, she's the most beautiful person I know. Her laugh is contagious, and she's kind and sensitive to others' feelings. Most importantly she knows how to treat others right and is very open-minded. She stops to feed cats on the street and the time she came over she was really kind to my family.

I want her, but if she doesn't want me then I must accept it. I'll get over her one of these days.

Maybe.