I remember your voice

Part 14

"the most expensive thing in the world is self-respect, nothing can cost more than that"

And I chose not to play the role of the candle to heat him up more, I was angry too but not that angry cause at the end of the day he didn't say all those things to me it was meant for the owner of the body.

As soon as I reached the palace, I mean we reached the palace, I witness some new creature that I never saw crawling before, on the royal ground, mahranisaa was waiting for us, as planned with some other people who also resemble their aura, I mean they seem royal too.

Close to mahranisaa was a woman who must be of her age, with a girl who might be 17 or 18 I guess, feet away from them were sitting two men, one resembling the egoistic jerk and another who was close to his father's age.

"oh godddd"

Fell into my ears in a super duper dramatic way, as soon two pairs of the twinkle of elder women who were of twin age of mahranissa sat on me. She came sliding, and grab both sides of my face in her iron hands and start squeezing it as if I were some fluffy stuffed toy.

She checked me from head to toe twice and sigh and then look at the ceiling,

"thank god"

She muttered as if she is making direct contact with the pitcher of god, that was somewhere in the ceiling design, my lawyer's instinct start beeping and my heart and brain both received a red signal in unity, I am one hundred and twenty percent sure this woman is only displaying the act of emotions, I put many people like her under the bars, I can tell just by the pause and frequency of her voice, that she is not good news.

Her eyes are different from the women who promised to raise me since childhood and mahranisaa.

'do you know how much afraid we were since yesterday and then we suddenly find out this evening that you are missing from the palace, may god keep you away from evil eyes.'

She said in her annoying voice.

"it ok maharani and she is ok vaid ji said she is fine there is nothing to be concerned about"

Mahranisaa walked close to us and free from the torture of that woman, even my ears hurt.
I don't know to whom mahranisaa is lying to me or to her may be to both she seems a wise woman and is killing two birds with one stone.

"Still you know she is so young to be queen and he to be king, only if Jeth ji wouldn't have gone missing he wouldn't have to handle the responsibility of this huge empire."

Ohhh so that's why he had to become king at such a young age, I thought to myself.

"sorry but she is tired and will not be able to answer the rest of your question, Choti maa you can continue tomorrow if you don't mind"

The color of her face changed but she nodded anyway, he looked at dasis.

'take the queen to her chamber and gave her medicine and make sure no one visits her as she rest"

He again smiled at her and then at me slightly and then he free my wrist and left.

Shit, I didn't realize he was holding my wrist for so long and why he is suddenly acting nice, no one realized his responsibility this quick just after one scolding and that too only theoretical, it was practical and theoretical both in my case when I don't use to listen to my mom. Maybe he is just acting like mahranisa said to put a show in front of everyone.

If that's the case I must say he is a pretty good actor.

But whatever he saved me from any further inquiry from that woman, mahranisaa left and that old man who I guess is this annoying women's husband and that young boy who I think Is their son also left.

She smiles at me annoyingly and she also walks away with that girl who I am sure made a face at me before leaving, bitch.

Well, I think there is more than one person, I will hate in the future if my future refuses to return to the 21st century.

I enter my chamber and order everyone to leave me alone and they left but I am pretty much sure they just left the chamber not this section of the palace and they are still outside.

I fell onto the bed and automatically face the ceiling and tears roll down from my eyes. so much happened in one day and I've already been scolded twice, everyone seems fake here and everyone seems to lie my last hope vanishes and I am married to a person who hates me , I don't wanna accept it this fast but I am already missing Meera and rani

And the second tear also escaped from my eyes, in the 21st century I was alone but not lonely atleast I had two people by my side. Now, even they are far from me. Is this is what he wants, to snatch everything from me? every person I love, every person I care for, maybe this is his way of punishing me for everything I did wrong

but it doesn't matter what I do, cause I know he will punish me anyway, cause he loves to .......(sobs) he loves to threaten weak people.(more sobs)

I don't know how Meera will be facing everything alone now, and that made my heart clench more. she is also alone, she refused to be with someone because of me and now she will have no one by her side too.

And another tear rolled down and many others followed it and I can't stop them, because at the end of the day it is unfair no matter how many times I think about It, it is unfair.

I was wiping my tears when that elder women enter the chamber who claimed to raise this body I wiped my tears but I guess she saw my red eyes she immediately placed whatever she was holding on the table and embrace me in a hug.

"it's okay ranisaa, it's ok he will accept you don't cry

'I wasn't crying because of that jerk but I chose not to reply to her, she pat my head slightly and wipe my wet cheeks.

"he is young and has so many responsibilities at such a young age, he can't understand you now but I know he will soon understand you and will not ...'

"Yeah, I know".

She didn't continue what she was planning to say anymore but she continue to pat my head.
'you are young and I know you loved him since childhood, but there are things that we can't force, and love is one of them, you can't force someone to love you, you can give them your world and they may still not want it, but you should know that it was you who choose to love them, and now it's up to them to accept it or not, but.

"but what"?

"but you should not forget your own worth and if it cost more than your self-respect than its not love it's obsession".

I know what she meant I was there once, I gave him my whole world and he didn't care once before marrying someone else.

And tear again roll down my eye, why everything is making me sad today I hate to cry in front of anyone but I seem high on emotions.

She again hugs me and I hug her back.

'but this is unfair"

I said between my sobs

"life is unfair to most of us'