Wicked Game (Dean Ambrose Fan Fic)

Reality

We sat on my little couch and faced each other. I was freaking out inside. I started nervously bouncing my leg in anticipation of what was coming. Jon looked at me and put his hand on my knee to stop me. 

"Please stop doing that" he laughed

I half smiled and looked into his eyes looking for answers. For some kind of clue as to which way this conversation was going to go. He was always so hard to read. I never knew which way it was going to go and it always turned out the opposite of what I thought. I knew for sure that I wasn't wrong this time. His reaction to Tyler was lukewarm at best and this only meant one thing.  I had all of these thoughts spinning around in my head freaking me out. I looked down and my eyes welled up with tears. I heard him sigh and I looked up. He wiped my tears

"Ashley I haven't even said anything and you're already crying"

"I know where this is going."

"Oh you do?"

I nodded "I'm not stupid. Why else would you want to talk in private?"

"So you're a mind reader? You know exactly what I was going to say? Why don't you go ahead and tell me what you think I was going to say"

"You're going to tell me that you don't want this. That you aren't ready for it. That you're sorry you came here and that it was nice to see me, but you're leaving. And then I'm going to pretend like I totally understand and that I accept it when really I don't. And then I'm going to drop you off at the hotel and come back here completely hurt and mad at myself because I stupidly got my hopes up."

"Would you be surprised if I told you that you were wrong?"

I smirked at him  "Sure I am."

"You are. You're wrong. That's not what I was going to say at all. Just listen OK? And stop crying."

I nodded and wiped my eyes. This suddenly became interesting. Now I for sure had no idea where he was going with this. He looked around the room and then back at me. "What is he looking at?" 

"How long is your lease here?"

"Why?"

"Just answer me...how long is your lease here?"

"It's a short term lease so only 6 months....why?"

"Just curious."

"Ok that was weird" I thought to myself as we just sat there. I was waiting for this big speech and instead he just keeps staring at me and asking random questions. I raised my eyebrow at him and waited for what seemed like forever. I mean really was he going to say anything at all?  He sighed and smiled at me. I smiled back and continued to wait

"Were you going to talk or was I right from the start?"

He laughed a little "Yeah. I was just making sure I had everything I wanted to say in order."

"OooK soooo get talkin then"

"Ashley I want to work this out between us, but...and I know you hate this...it is complicated."

I rolled my eyes and scoffed. I HATED when he said that. In my mind there's nothing complicated about it. I'm really cut and dry. You either do it or you don't...you say it or you don't. I feel like saying things are complicated is a cop-out and an excuse. And he knows that which is why he warned me in a way before he said it. 

"I know I know I know Ash you hate it when I say that, but hear me out. It really is complicated. Things are different now that I'm on the main roster. I'm not home a lot...maybe one day a week so if we did this we'd be trying to fix it with A LOT of distance between us. You'd have to trust me and not go and do things like you did when I was in Germany. Do you think you can handle that or will it be a problem for you?"

I thought about it for a minute. I mean it was do-able. I could do it, but do I want to do it?  That's the big question. Things were different for him? Well, things were different for me too. I had more than myself to think about now. If I didn't have Tyler this wouldn't even be a question in my mind. If I really wanted Jon then I had to make a decision. I just hoped it was the right decision

"I can do it, but things can't be like they were. We have to stop sabotaging our relationship. Tyler is involved now and we can't be fighting and arguing and storming out on each other. We can't keep kicking each other out and getting out of control. If we do this we have to do it all the way and not half assed. If it doesn't work then it doesn't work. It's been 7 years of off and on...I think we've hurt each other enough. It's time to grow up and be adults and do this right.  No more games."

"I love you Ashley. That's never changed. I want you back. I'll do whatever it takes."

I smiled and leaned in and kissed him. He pulled me closer and kissed back. I pushed him back and straddled him as both of our shirts came off. He pulled back and smiled

"I missed you"

I smiled back "I missed you too" as I crashed my lips to his

"What time is it?" I asked while getting dressed

"Uhhh 8:30"

"Shit! Josh is going to be pissed at me. I need to go back and pick up Tyler before I take you to the hotel."

I finished getting dressed and grabbed my keys and purse and impatiently waited for Jon. He came over and pulled me to him and hugged me. I smiled soaking it all in. 

"There's one more thing Ash"

I pulled back and looked up at him "What?"

"When your lease is up I want you to move back home with me."

"Seriously?"

"Yes, I'm serious. Your stuff is still there and I hate living in that big apartment alone."

I smiled "You're sure?"

"Yep. I wouldn't have asked if I wasn't."