the clinic

4. mirror

Nialls pov

Louis is so focused on the movie i grab Harrys drink again and take a few more sips. "Niall! I swear to god i will murder you" louis says. "When and where? Can it be soon? Maybe before family day?" I ask.

"Changed my mind. I am gonna keep you a life as long as possible" louis says then. Dang it! After the movie we go to our rooms. Luckily Liam doesn't sleep here but there are cams in the room and an alarm for when i try. We lay down in bed.

"Why don't you wanna sport?" Harry suddenly asks. I turn to him and he looks at me. "First of all a part of depression is not seeing the fun in anything anymore. Not getting out of bed and those kind of stuff" i answer.

"What kind of depression do you have?" Harry asks. "The one where you wanna kill yourself so bad that you try and it just doesn't work. Then that drives you crazy and you keep trying cus you want it to happen" i say. "I wanna sport!" Harry says. "Take my place please" i say. "We can try?" Harry says. "How? Liam always walks me to there and Louis is always with you so not gonna happen" i say sad.

"What did you love to do?" Harry asks. "I was great with a guitar and with football" i say. "Try that" harry says. "No. I can't cus i don't wanna come out bed and i suck bad time at it" i answer. "I think that is a lie and we will see tomorrow when we have music"

So this clinic is not just a clinic but also a school so we don't fall behind on school. "I don't have music. Never chose for that. I never go to school here either" i say. "Why not?" Harry asks. "Cus of Lucas" i answer. "What did he do?" Harry asks. "Need to tell more after the group session?" I ask tired. "No. Night Nialler" harry says. "Night Hazza bear" we laugh and not much later i fall asleep.

Next morning
Harrys pov

We are at the cafeteria. I am looking at my food. It's a BLT sandwich so a lot of food and calories. "You can eat the half of it without throwing up" louis says. "Can i sport today?" I ask. "No" louis answers. "Why not?" I ask. "Cus you'll lose weight then which we don't want to happen" he says then he turns to Niall.

"What did i do?" Niall asks with a full mouth. "You know what you did" niall looks scared. He looks at Liam. "What did i do?" He asks again.

Nialls pov

I honestly am wondering what i did. I did a lot and some of those they can't know. Like when i was in the bathroom this morning and cut myself again.

"Talking harry to sport for you. Does that ring a bell?" Liam asks. I just don't wanna sport. My knee hurts a lot after!" I say. "You need to sport" Alex says. My wrist hurts from this morning. I slowly look at it so no one sees it and its bleeding.

"I have to go to the bathroom" i say walking away. I see Lucas holding everyone back from going to the toilet. I try to walk past him but he pushes me away. "Nock it off" i say. "No. You're not going without asking me" he says. I roll my eyes and walk away but he grabs my wrist and punches me in my face.

Liam runs up to us. "Lucas go to zayn before i let Alex drag you" he warns. Liam looks at me worried and then sees the wound. "Hospital wing it is" liam says more worried.

Zayn comes to us too. "When did you do it?" Zayn asks worriedly. "This morning" i answer. "How did you do it?" Liam asks. "I might have broke the mirror" i say looking down. I get bandage around my full hand and wrist.

"Does Harry know you don't have a mirror anymore?" I shake my head. I feel tears running down my face. I am so scared. I just need harry to hate me like everyone else in here cus he can't like me and we can't be friends. I will have a bad influence on him and i hate that.