marvel woman

all i know is pain

Peter is crying, sobbing should I say, "peter, I understand your pain," I say, as my deep voice kicks in.

He turned to me, looking at me with a face of fury and anger, "somone who's immortal could never understand my pain," he said, and I sighed, turning back around.

Taking a sip of my beer, "peter -" Maria started to speak butbi cut her off, " Do you even know the definition of immortality?" I asked after golping some beer down.

"What?" Peter siad, " it means thst me and only me, can not die," I say, I could feel his gaze on me.

I turned to him while grabbing my beer, " Would you like to take a guess at how many funerals I've been to?" I say, standing up and getting closer to him.

"How many smiles I've seen turned into flowers in front of a tombstone?" I say, as I could feel my tears well up.

But I closed my eyes holding them back, "and some of them don't get thst ending," I say, feeling the fire in my throat, wanting me to cry.

"I've seen people crumble, disappear without a trace," I say, getting closer to him and seeing him step back.

"Ending so horrible thst none should've never seen them," I say, then feeling the team stand up, feeling at though I'm about to hurt the kid.

"And that's not all," I say, turning back around and going back to my stool on the bar that I was sitting at originally.

Feeling peter sit next to me, "I am afraid of loving anyone," I admitted, feeling the tears fall down my face.

"For I know Inevitably, at some point, they will they will crumble away, or betray me," I say, feeling more tears fall.

Then, I feel peters sorry eyes on me, "Do not act as if I don't know what pain is," I say, taking the last sip of my beer.

Then, slowly placing it down, sensing someone else sitting on the other side of me.

I sqeezed the glass bottle, making it break in my hands, cutting them up, slowly opening my hamd seeing some shards in my hand, "All I know is pain," I say, not even showing thst it hurts.

"It's a different pain. When you don't cry anymore," I say, seeing sparkly pink whisps wrap around hand heeling it as it starts to disaster.

"You just take a deep breath and exept that shit for what it is," I say, sighing as the pink whisps disappears completely.

I bowed my head down, shaking my head, then Shoting, my head up laying my eyes on the mirror, seeing how much of a reck I was.

I shook my head, violently wiping away my tears, sniffling, then standing back up, "I'll uh be in my room if anyone needs me," I say, walking away.

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I was sitting with my back leaning on my bed, my eyes dopy, as just moments ago, I did something so very stupid.

I saw some pills in Tony's lab, and they said they were for his panic attack and that it said that if you take too many or all of them, it could cause death.

"Mabye, I'm the problem," I mumbled, shaking my head as o dropped the bottle of pills.

Then suddenly, my thought started to louder than normal, "Stop, shut up, shut up!" I shouted, hitting my head like a drum, then feeling someone taking my hands.

"Hey, y/n, it's ok, calm down," natasha voice was heard but muffled while my body stseted to twitch, feeling a seizer coming.

Then I felt red whisps wrap around my brain, then sucked the pulls dry, making it look like they were never there.

My eyes shot open, feeling relief and relaxed, hey y/n, it's ok, it's just Nat and wanda. " I heard wandas voice in my head.

I felt that fire in my throat, but I didn't hold it back, I closed my eyes, letting the tears fall and the sobs to leave my mouth.

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Two years later

wanda and Nat. They got married and had a kid, "Mummy, can we go visit y/n," Billy asked putting his shoes on, "yeah I wanna go see y/n to," Tommy siad, rushing to get his shoes on.

Wanda smiled, "If that's OK with Mama," she said, smiling with some fresh tears, "yea, sure, let's go," Nat siad, as she hold the two month old baby girl in her arms.

They started their road trip started and ended, "Come on, Mama mummy, I wanna see y/n, I bet sheep be happy to see us," Tommy whined while dragging Nat along as wanda goes in the back tk reseve the baby.

Once receiving the baby and locking the car, they made the long walk to the one spot they knew you would be.

"Hey, y/n, we miss you. You will not believe what happened at school today," Billy said, while him and rommy sat down.

Wanda placed down a rose as she remembered that they were my favourite( if there not your favourite thing of a different one).

"Billy's right we miss you," Nat siad, jently takimgnthe baby out of wandas arms.

"Y/n,meet y/n/n, we named her after you," Nat siad, smiling to the toomstone, 'here lise y/n, lover sister and avenger'.