Mine | Draco Lucius Malfoy

13. Made up my mind

The day was coming to a close now, the orange hues were casting shadows all around the castle, I'd met up with everyone this morning, even Draco, he hadn't said anything yet but I knew I was going to be getting some questions later.

My arm way interlinked with Pansy's as the group of us all made of way down the hillside and towards the lakes edge.

We normally went down there a couple days a week just to chat and skid rocks in the water.

We got there and set down our picnic blanket, Pansy and I were sat on it watching the boys scavenge for some dry drift wood to hopefully start a fire with.

"Look what I've got." I whisper to Pansy and she lean's my direction intrigued, I dig through the pocket of my robe and pull out a blunt, "I've given up lecturing you about those I'll leave that for Blasie and Malfoy."

I drew the lighter out of Theo's robe he'd left on the blanket and lit the white roll between my fingers, my goal... smoke at least half of it before the boys get pissed and take it off me.

"Right I've got small sticks and Blasie's gone to get the larger logs, it just depends on how long you guys wanna stay out here cause it's gonna get really cold when the sun goes down." Theo explains dumping the sticks in a pile next to the circle of rocks me and Pansy had prepared.

Theo stays next to us for a couple minutes creating a little stack of twigs before going to search for his lighter, I express my hand and pass it to him, his face shifts to a confused gaze before he notices my blunt.

"Oh, care to share." He reaches for the cigarette and I pass it over to him, he lights the fire and makes sure it's well supplied before passing the blunt back to me.

After a while everything started to feel soft, the smoke was finally doing it's job, just in time for the boys to return.

Blaise and Draco arrived lugging a few logs in their arms, they paused giving me a disappointed look before putting the logs down next to the fire.

"Malfoy sort out your girlfriend I'm going to add some fuel to this fire." Blaise says kneeling down infront of the flames.

Draco walks up to me and I knew what was coming.

"Up" he demands, I give his a confused look before grinning slightly, only just revealing my dimples.

"We're going for a little chat." He spoke once more before lifting me up by my arm and dragging me up the hill and into the forest.

"Draco what the fuck was that about." I say brushing my sleeves, i stuttered a bit as my hands brushed over my new cuts.

I knew I shouldn't have but when I got this morning I couldn't help it, it felt like the world was coming down on me and I had forgot how to be happy, what ever happened Draco did not need to find out about it.

"Give it to me Lu." Draco says holding out his hand.

He just nicknamed me, huh.

"What?" I question vaguely, "the weed, give it to me." I sighed and reluctantly handed it over, he presses it against a stone to put it out and tosses it aside. "You really need to quit that habit." He retorts harshly as we continue to stroll through the forest.

"Like you ever had a problem with me smoking before." I answer and he runs a hand through his hair.

"Lu I am being serious, If you keep up this stupid habit it will kill you, you seem to not care anymore, I can't tell if you want to die or live and I don't think you can tell either, you seem to just sit on the fence and wait for a gust of wind to push you one way or another, I don't know what it will take to convince you that some people actually care about you, I don't want to lose you Lu yet that's all I seem to think about, don't kid me and tell me your better now, you've lost more weight since I last saw you, you were missing last night and suddenly you turn up at school again, not only that but you look sick, physically sick, so I know something happened yesterday and I'm not going to push you to talk about it but I seriously think you need to, and I can almost guarantee if you rolled up your sleeves there would be more cuts there, I can only help you if you trust me enough to talk to me Lu because the way your going, if you don't eat anything anytime soon, you'll die!" He yelled grabbing my shoulder and pressing me against a tree.

"Fuck you Draco I'm fine!" I say shoving him off me.

"No your fucking not, that reaction answered for you!"

"Why do you care huh, as of a couple months ago we were sharing our pot now you won't let me fucking smoke it, what's that about!"

"Your only mad at me because you know I'm giving you the truth you won't accept!"

"Fuck you I don't need anybody, I've got my self!"

"That's going fucking great for you isn't it!"

"It is, it's going fine because I don't care anymore, I give up, I wanna die okay, is that what you wanna fucking hear!"

"What?"

"What...What...What you gonna say now!"

"Lu..."

Tears stream down my face.

"Baby..."

"Don't call me that, if you really loved me you would let me fucking die!" I start to hit his chest.

His eyes don't break from mine.

"Lu..."

"Dammit stop saying my name Malfoy!"

He holds my wrists stopping me from hitting him.

"Lu... what happened last night."

I cry even harder.

I stand there defeated, I've had all that I care about taken from me, all except him, and I'm to scared to let him in because I don't want to lose him either.

"Talk to me Baby." He speaks clearly, he brush's the hair out of my face.

"He killed my parents." I say softly and he understood right away, he pulled me in for a hug, Draco pulled me in for a hug.

Dracos never hugged anyone, ever.

"I'm going to help you baby, okay?" He tells me waiting for my agreement and I just lay in his arms, because what he doesn't know is that...

I've already made up my mind.