Midnight Messages [wattys2015]

School : Maths

We were in the computer room today. It is the only break we get from doing actual pen on paper maths so I didn't take advantage of these lessons.

I took every opportunity to catch up with my friends.

My friend looked at me funny. It was Abi.

Well the night before she told me to ask Emma if she was okay with me going to prom with him. But I wasn't so sure on the idea yet. I wasn't up for hurting a friend.

Although Abi had understood me, I found it hard to do what she told me to.
I wanted to sort things out my way. However, I wasn't sure how to listen to myself. My mind was a messy place.

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Abi had been staring at me for what felt like ages, I gave her a "what?" look and she tilt her head back. I looked behind to see him sat right behind me. Now I hadn't... okay I did purposely sit here but not only because he was there.

I told her "not yet" and we got back to 'work'

When I thought I was safe, I heard voices which were so annoying that I couldn't ignore them.

It was his friends and that annoying kid that used to sit next to me.

"Hey Amelia, he has something to ask you."

Typical.

Childish.

Boys.

"Does he?"

"Yeah, go to prom with him."

I looked at them like, 'your not his mother, he has his own voice.'

Abu shone me a caring look but also one of excitement. She wanted me to go with him, she knew I'd regret it.

"I can't." I told them.

Then I looked into his eyes and said, "I can't, I can't ditch Emma"

He rolled his eyes and replied with an email which read

'Go with me to prom and ditch Emma.'

I told him no, unless he found someone for her to go with.

Then I asked if he would ditch me.

Conscience: why did I ask that? Because I was being selfish, I was actually thinking about the offer.

He said "no" but I know I can't trust him, nor can I trust myself.

The boys spoke up, "are you going with him then? Please do."

I looked at the kids puppy dog eyes and thought to myself 'why do any of them care, to them it's just a stupid kids disco, to us girls we see it as much more. I was turning into the worrying about prom princess that I never wanted to be.

Then he spoke, "I'll ask Lewis. He will say yes"

I looked at him in slight relief.

"I'll have to speak to Emma."

That was pretty much the end of that episode of a day.

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I saw Emma around school and Abi would be with me too but I just couldn't talk about it to her, I didn't know what to say. Even if I found the right words I could only see a spiralling nightmare taking place.

So I just kept silent.