Midnight Messages [wattys2015]

Bed

I'm laying in bed now.

Do you ever feel so lonely that you want so badly to speak to someone?

I have that.

The thing is I have people around me who love and care for me so I'm not alone.

However, do you ever wish that you could speak to someone who you have never met before and talk to them about your problems in the hope that they won't judge you.

I am so lucky to have such beautiful friends.

Inside and out.

I don't understand why I still have some because lately I feel like I have betrayed most of their impressions of me.

Sometimes I just feel a tiny bit alone.

Not literally but mentally.

So I looked up at the stars.

The moon and the sky.

My bedroom window is one of the most important things that I have stayed in touch with since I was a child.

Whenever I feel this way I will look up at the moon and picture someone else looking up at it too.

There are billions of us on this planet.

Many may not have seen night fall yet but for those who have, I can feel their presence.

The ones who look up at the stars as I am are connected to me in someway.

I'm not alone .

There are others who feel the same as me.

We are not alone.

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I'm lying in bed and I'm trying to dream of someone who doesn't know me yet.

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I wanted security

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I wanted to go back

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With what I have witnessed, maybe it's not the way to go (to go back) I think I need to change .

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I need to make a difference and change

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No one deserves unhappiness, I am too modest to belief this for myself but I knew that for the sake of others I want them to be happy.

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My last thought before I shut my eyes was

'I love our world'

And then I woke up with regret.