Sender Unknown | Jimin x reader | 18+

18. Boy with luv

As I stand there with the wind blowing through my hair and Jimin staring into my eyes I come to the conclusion that no matter what happens, I have no clue what I'm doing.

"Jimin, what am I to you?"

The sound from the city keeps roaring while he seems to have been turned upside down.

"Jimin?"

He keeps staring at me, unable to breathe.

"Sorry, Y/N... I don't... You are..." Then he stops again, making me feel extremely uneasy.

"I need to know because, one minute you seem to play around, the next you talk about falling in love with me and don't forget the: all so pleasant lie" I grab his arm and try to get his attention. "Jimin-ah, we can't keep doing this, hell I don't even know what this is!? Sex and text?? I feel so stupid when you know how easily you affect me!"

"But that's not what I... Y/N... My feelings for you, I told you that I'm falling in love with you"

"Then act like it! don't behave like all you want to do is fuck me every time we are close to each other!"

Your words stung as much as it caused reflection in his mind, he's gotten used to be flirty and when it comes down to it, he's never been a serious relationship or know how to act around you. All he knows right now is that everything he does round you seems to end up wrong.

"I can't... I'm sorry Jimin, that's not enough." I blink away the stinging tears as I turn around and start walking back towards the door.

"Y/N!"

Don't turn around, keep walking. Don't turn around, keep walking. I say to myself over and over.

"STOP!"

I jolt around when his hand grab my arm and pull me to the side. My cheeks are stained with tears and I can't bring myself to stop heaving.

"Y/N, I know I have behaved badly and I would take it back if I could but honestly, I'm not apologizing for the physical attraction that we have. I'm sorry but I won't." He places his hands on my waist and let out a deep breath before hi continues.

"I lied to you twice, and for that I'm truly sorry."

I bite my cheek, trying to stop myself for screaming out in anger. "I thought you only lied about who you were, now you are telling me there is another lie?" 

He looks terrified and turn his head to the side in order to avoid my burning gaze. "JIMIN!?"

"I lied when I told you that I was falling in love with you, I'm not--"

"I knew it... fucking idol..." I push my hands against his chest as hard as I can't but he won't budge. "MOV--"

Instead of letting me go he crashes his lips on mine. I get so startled by his actions that I instantly slap him across his face, making him stumble but never letting me go.

"I'm not falling in love with you Y/N, I love you."

I gasp and let my hand fly over my mouth in disbelief. "What?"

"I love you."

"Yes I heard that, but I just don't understand..." I keep thinking of how long we have known each other, how many times I have smiled at him, how many nights I have dreamt about him. No scenario included him falling  in love with me.

"I-I have to go!"

He finally let's me go and I run towards the door and as soon as the elevators shuts I hunch down and try to get a hold of myself. What the actual fuck?