Sender Unknown | Jimin x reader | 18+

43. Butterfly

I wake up by the sun peeking through the blinds and stabbing my sore lids. I ungracefully turn around, letting out a grunt and pull the covers over my head.

Another night with next to no sleep, crying and wanting to change the reality. 

"Y/N-ie? Honey are you awake?"

Iseul pops her head into my bedroom and scans the room to make sure that I'm still there. Your friend had worked so hard at trying to keep you calm and somewhat comfortable these last few days, I feel guilty knowing how bad I must have made her feel.

"Mmm, barely." I yawn and resurface from the comfort of my bed sheets. "Issie?"

She cocks her head "Yes?"

I twirl my fingers and look at my friend. "What time is it?" Iseul smiles softly "It's three in the afternoon."

I jolt up and panic. "What the hell!? why didn't you wake me up?" She walks over and sits down beside me. "You haven't been able to sleep so why should I? Plus, I had some errands to take care of."

My curiosity perks up and I carefully glance at her. "Oh, w-what errands did you have to run? on a weekend..." She smirks, knowing I wanted to know if she's seen Jimin.

"I met Joon in Hannam." Iseul answers calmly but her head falls down, making a knot form in my stomach.

"Oh, okay. Are you okay?" I ask and gently grab her hand.

She exhales and removes my hand. "Yeah... I'm fine."

A knife goes through my heart. I have been the worst friend, being so wrapped up in my own mess that I never considered the fact that Iseul might be hurting to, that she is also in love with a member.

"Issie, I'm so sorry. I have been such an awful friend lately, I never asked how you are feeling about your situation with Namjoon... I hope you know that even if I have my own truckload of shit, you can always talk to me. I'm here for you too, this friendship swings both ways."

She shakes her head "No, no... my problem is nothing... don't even mention it."

Iseul turns away from you, hoping that it's working. She knows that it's a bit harsh to play on your guilt but she knows you'll try to prove yourself.

"YAH! I might be a cow with horrible decision-making skills at the moment but I'll do anything for you!" I panic, and start rubbing her back. "What happened Issie!?"

Still shifted with her back facing me, she start speaking. "I called him... we needed to talk and I want some kind of closure. I mean we can't keep doing this. The constant back and forth... I can't take it anymore..." She pauses and start to fiddle with her hair. "But, uhm... we got interrupted by a phone call and he had to leave, so we said that we would meet up later tonight but I don't think I can muster up the courage again..."

My friend needs support, she's confused and in love. "I can go with you? I mean, I'm not going to be there with you but I can drive you I you want to?"

I almost fall off the bed when she spins around smiling and gives me a hug. "You would do that for me!? Really!?" I chuckle against her shoulder. "Of course I would silly!"

"Are you sure you'll be fine with going to Hannam though? Joon said we could meet at his friends apartment so that we don't have to talk at the dorm so you won't even be close to Jim-"

Iseul stops herself mid sentence and hope that she didn't make a mistake. "You can say his name Issie... I will have to see him and hear his name everywhere. I can't escape BTS, and you know I love him. That didn't change." You try to fake a smile but fail miserably.