*flashback*
"You're fake"
"You don't deserve him"
"Go away, will you?"
"Slut"
"Ugly bitch"
"You think you're beautiful? Well, think again"
"Girl srsly, leave Louis alone. He doesn't give a single f*uck about you. We both know that"
"(Y/n)?"
Shit.
"Yeah? I'm in the loo! Be out in a minute"
I tried to shout back as calm as I can. I've been shaking uncontrollably all night. And Louis decided to show up here in my apartment, as in right now, while I'm reading all those, things.
Breathe in. Breathe out.
"Heya, babe. What are y-"
"We kinda need to talk. Right now."
Cool. He didn't let me kiss him and turned away when I was gonna hug him.
"What's goin on? What's the matter?"
"I'm breaking up with you."
I really did not expected that...
"Wait. W-what?" I'm confused and hurt at the same time. How could he?
"(Y/n). Listen to m-"
"No. Louis. I am not going to listen. We already talked about this, right? I don't care what your fans are saying and doing to me. Just please. Whatever you're gonna say or do. Please, don't." I begged. No, I can't live without him. Not now...
"I love you, (y/n) with all my heart and soul. You know that. But-"
"But what? You can't take it when you see me crying? I'm crying because it's too much, but I know for myself can handle it! As long as we love each other and as long as you love me, we can make it. We can get through this. I know. Louis, I-"
"Stop. And listen to me."
Is he really gonna do this to me...
"I don't think I can take it anymore. I'm going to do this not because I don't love you anymore. But because I want you to be happy. Not like... this. You're crying every night when you open your social media accounts. Afraid to go outside and just locking yourself up here the whole day, sometimes a whole week, and I don't wanna you to do it a whole month next. Drinking sleeping pills because you can't sleep without it. You need a normal life, (y/n). And be with someone better, not with me. My life is a full of controversies, rumors and other utter sh*t. And I don't want you to be involved, not that I don't wanna be with you.
Being in my life is difficult. A little move, my name's already in an article before I could even blink. Spotted eating in a restaurant, rumors already scattered all over the place before I could even eat my meal. Gone out to go clubbing with friends, pap pictures here and there with the most bullsh*t caption I've ever read.
I just don't want your name and pictures in article headlines anymore, that i know you're not comfortable with. I love you. I really do, believe me. That's why I am saying this and... breaking up with you. Because I love you. Try to understand the situation, please (y/n)."
I'm... speechless. I didn't noticed that my cheeks already wet because of crying and my sobs unstoppable. This won't stop til Louis take back all of what he just said.
"Louis, you know I tried to understand a long time ago. But I can't. I really don't get it. We can still be together with hates and bash around us. What matters most is that we love each other. And I wanna be involved in your life, even if it's hard and difficult or whatever-"
"(Y/n)!" Louis yelled and I flinched.
"Do you think it's easy for me to do this? Do you think I'm not hurting? Do you think I agree with this, that I wanted all of these to happen? I'm f*cking dying inside! Just a thought of not being with you anymore is like I'm giving away my soul to satan! I'm not also happy and convinced with all of this sh*t..."
Silence...
"I-is that what you really w-want?" I whispered. The air in here is getting thick. It's suffocating.
"(Y/n)..."
"Then get outta here. Now."
"You don't understand-"
"I really don't! And I'm trying try to! I can't do and think anything with you in here. Just please. Leave."
I'm sobbing and crying like there's no tomorrow. Oh, I kinda like that one...
Louis tried to get near me. But I stepped back and raised my hands to stop him.
"If you're gonna comfort me and tell me everything's gonna be okay, don't. Everything will not be okay anymore for me..." From so much sobbing, I need to stop talking and even out my breathing.
"And if you want a last and final hug and kiss from me, don't try. Because I won't let you. You're the one who told me earlier, that we're over and we can't be together anymore..." I sobbed again. I'm surprised I'm still not fainting because of the lack of oxygen in my lungs.
"...so you don't have any right from now on. Thank you for everything. Tha-thank you for loving me. Louis, just leave. P-Please." I pleaded.
I heard he sighed in defeat and sniffed. Oh well, I'm not the only one who's crying here then.
"Thank you also, (y/n). For the memories and all. It'll have a special place in my heart. Thank you and I love you. Good bye, (y/n)."
He opened the door and I wanna punch myself for talking once more.
"Thank you and I'm sorry too for being not enough for you. I-I tried so hard to be strong, and I think it wasn't enough for you. I love you. Good bye, Louis."
He's turning to face me again but I stopped him quickly.
"Don't do anything. Don't say anything. Just go and leave."
He thinks that I didn't heard him say good bye again before fully closing the door. But I did.
*end of flashback*
It's been a month since that day and I'm trying to live a normal life now, just what Louis wanted me to have. Oh, Louis. That name again.
I'm currently reading a magazine in my favorite coffee shop waiting for my best friend to arrive so I have someone to talk to. What's taking him so long?
Then some article caught my attention. The title of the article are in bold and italic letters.
One Direction's Louis Tomlinson caught on cam kissing an infamous blonde girl at a club in Cali... And guess what, (Y/f/n) doesn't have a blonde hair. Oohhh...
Oh, I think it's official. It's all over.
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Hola! Part 2 aye! And I'm planning to make a part 3... What do you guys think? Hmm... 😋
So yeah! Hope you guys liked it 💞
- Unknown xx
