𝒜𝓁𝒶 𝑅𝒶𝓈𝒾

CH 19

"Don't do that not right now please.." Watching The love of my life disassociate again is something I do not like to see

"come on baby talk to me I wanna hear your voice" I beg Im on her side of the bed kneeling looking at her ball her eyes out

"god Im sorry damiano, You probably think im disgusting.." I shake my head at her pulling her up and hugging her towards me in a straddle position. "No never, I'd never think that your disgusting" wiping her tears off her face I kiss her on the lips gently

"Never" I mumble out and she nods laying her head on my chest Sniffling slightly "come on love its only 2pm, the sun is out, very pretty day so lets go have a picnic yea? we can bring duke and evalyn if you want" she nods

"but duke gets car-sick" I smile at her cuteness 

"Thats why we're going in the truck precious, I'll attach his leash to the hangar and he won't get outta there even if he tried" she smiles showing her pretty dimples and pecks me on the lips

"I'll go get ready" she squeals running off into the closet as I get up and go to Evalyn's room, I already have food packed in a basket so I know if she said yes everything would be prepared

"Hey you!!" I pick her up spinning her around kissing her on both her cheeks as she screams in excitement "Go get your dress on and meet mommy in the room so she can do your messy hair" I chuckle at her hair going in all types of directions

"Okay daddy!" I leave the room and go to the garden to get duke " DUKE! BUDDY COME HERE" he runs to me barking, I swear he runs like those dogs in the commercials for vaccines or allergy pills

( I DIED AT THIS)

"come on buddy" I attach his leash to his collar taking him to the truck, Picking him up swiftly and gently setting him on the back "Your so cute" I pet him, grabbing the end of his leash hooking it on the hangar making sure it doesn't untie itself "I'll be back buddy"

I go back inside seeing my girls in their sundresses coming down the stairs "Look daddy!!" 

"cute.." I mumble under my breath, looking at my wife I go up to her.  "you look so sexy...did you dress up like this for me hm?" I whisper in her ear kissing up her neck while grabbing her ass, her cheeks tinting pink, smiling I kiss her on the cheek grabbing her Hand and walking out with evalyn skipping in front of us

"Yay!! dukes coming!! hi duke" I open the door for my future wife "You may go in my passenger princess" she glares at me and I laugh 

"come on princess" I pick up evalyn sitting her in her car seat and buckling her up "duke..don't jump out bud" i say petting him and he barks, Getting in the car I turn it on and drive off to the small park thats 20 to 30 minutes away while playing some music

"Damiano.." I look over seeing valerie pointing to the pretty white dove on the bench "my favorite bird" I smile "Your my favorite bird"  she blushes and I smirk at her red cheeks..

focusing my eyes on the road once again, Looking through the rear view mirror checking on evalyn and duke

"you alright evalyn?" I ask her "Yea Im watching duke making sure he won't jump out the car daddy" I smile at her intelligence and park the car "well you don't have to do that because we're already here sweetheart" kissing Valeries hand I get out the car, taking out duke from the back as Valerie takes out evalyn.

Giggling evalyn and duke run off into the park as I pick up the basket and walk off hand in hand with my woman.

"its so nice out" she says softly look at the sky sighing to herself, I know she still feels down, I know she wants to go back home and huddle in the blankets but Im trying to help her get out more, I don't want her going back into a hole again or she'll dig an even deeper one and I don't want that for her.

We reach a small spot and I lay out the blanket setting the basket on top then sitting down with valerie by my side her head on my lap

"wine?" I ask with 2 wine glasses and wine bottle in my hand "yes please" she says in her soft tone which I love..

watching evalyn I see her wave and I wave back laughing at her small frame run around the park with duke, pouring the wine I give her the glass as she thanks me as I take a sip for myself

"here" I brought chocolate because Valerie always craves chocolate when drinking wine

"Heyy how'd you know?" I smile at her and kiss her on the lips "babe you crave it all the damn time" we laugh at that and she starts munching on her chocolate

"Damiano.." I hum at her letting her know Im listening "can we...can we have a baby?" Looking at her surprised I nod "of course but not now, maybe later on"

"why?" I look at her dumbfounded by her question, Well one she was taken advantage of and I don't wanna trigger her the moment we have sex, Two I don't want her to have flashbacks, and Three another baby with a hyperactive four year old is just gonna be pretty hard

"well..I don't want another baby around especially with evalyn since she's very active and hyper but we can have one when she's around six or seven" She nods at me and looks at the sky "are you sure it isn't because I got you know.." 

Seeing her tear up I quickly kiss her softly not giving a fuck about who's staring I only see Valerie.

"well I just don't wanna trigger you or you have flashbacks my love, I just want you to know that I want this baby more than you'll ever know but we have a four year old and a baby with a hyper four year old? thats death itself." she laughs and kisses me "I understand" I smile and Hold her close

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Valerie

I know its not because of that, I know he just doesn't wanna have sex with me because he doesn't wanna trigger me and Thats understandable Knowing me I'd probably break down before it even happens

Staring at the birds in the sky In thought, How I Wish I was a bird

I wonder what It feels like to feel the air under your wings, flying without a care in the world not worried about anything

"You okay darling?" I nod and take a sip of the savoury wine

"Dad Im hungry" Evalyn says sitting next to damiano "here kiddo" he passes her a sandwich and a juice box..

I Wish my dad treated like that but hey at least I'll have a good father to my kids

everyone suffers, everyone has had their problems and has had different ways to cope with it and thats fine as long as it helps them feel better

"DUKE!! COME HERE BUDDY" Setting his bowl of water down with some treats I pet his soft fluffy fur a bit and Take some chocolate for myself, Feeling damianos burning gaze on me I look at him and he pulls me in by my chin and kisses me softly

Pulling away he puts our foreheads together and we stare into eachothers eyes

"No matter what happens In our fucking lives..I will always be here" I smile at him and kiss him again..

"No matter what happens alright?" I nod at him and hug him. 

smiling and laughing at evalyns crazy dance she showed us "your so cute" I tell her "Thanks mommy" I smile at the thought

she called me mommy...

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Sorry if short, chapter kinda sucked lol but eh here you go ;) I sort of feel like shit lmao so bare with me haha <333