𝒜𝓁𝒶 𝑅𝒶𝓈𝒾

CH 21

Its the middle of the day and I just woke up after me and damiano's not so holy session shall I say

Playing with his hair as he lays on my chest, his face all up in my breast I giggle at the feeling of his stubble scratching slightly "Haha babe what are you doing?" Looking down at him I see him literally fucking see him sucking my nipple

"you trynna get milk out of me?" I laugh at the scene in front of me and try pushing his head away "no stay" I glare at him playfully "A girls gotta pee you know.." after five minutes of him Procrastinating whether I should get up he finally gets off of me as I try to run into the bathroom wincing slightly at the pain in my lower region

Keyword Trying

"HURRY UP TOO! I NEED THE TITTIES!" Rolling my eyes I do my business then Grab a shirt and put it on along with my underwear and start brushing my teeth and washing my face

"did you use all my face wash?" I ask him holding the empty bottle up to his face as he walks into the bathroom, He grabs it and looks at it "well ain't it the only way Im gonna stay pretty for you?"

I smile and grab the bottle throwing it at his face grabbing the other one out the cabinet "Bitch" I Mutter out, I see him come up behind me in the mirror, pulls me towards him and lifts my shirt up playing with my nipples

"what was that? I didn't quite hear you.." He thinks he's in control pfft got him right where I want him

"I said.." Going up on my tippy toes reaching his ear "Bitch.." I pull my shirt down and start running out the room as he runs behind me. holy fuck Im dead "Come here right now Valerie" Running downstairs I go into a random door and lock it

"Valerie where are you" laughing quietly I bump into something  "Ow.."  looking for the light switch feeling on the wall, I reach it and flip it on, seeing a board 

full of pictures of me..

I see pictures from when I first moved into my apartment with Marella, from when I first landed at the airport, from when I was In spain, and a Picture of me changing in my old bedroom

"how.." I turn around seeing damiano Looking at me with a big smile on his face.  "who are you? seriously it doesn't make sense somehow you knew my name at the bar, found out my address which I didn't find strange since you were in the mafia but How the fuck did you know me before I moved here?" I look at him my eyes filling with tears

He lied to me..

"Darling..I'm obsessed with you alright? that ex of yours? he's dead.. I killed him, Hurt him.. when the rest of the guys that you talked to went missing and you thought they were ghosting you that was all me babygirl..No one can Have you Only me and you can try to leave but you'll always be back right where I want you" He smirks at me and pulls me in by the waist 

"Eres Mia" I look up at him shocked not knowing what to say "you didnt have to kill them.." Im so shocked right now I can't even look at him

turning around facing the board I see small notes on the pictures

'you will be mine I guarantee it'

'no one can have you'

'such an innocent oblivious angel'

turning around I look at him once again, I can't move I feel stuck like I've been plastered with glue on a piece of paper, I don't know what to think should I leave him? I promised evalyn I wouldn't and I can't break that promise

"baby? your okay Im not gonna hurt you thats a promise" I look up at him my eyebrows furrow slightly "I never said that..either way How can I believe you-" I pause when I see him take out a pocket knife 

he grabs my hand holding the knife to my pinky finger

"I won't" he makes a small cut on it then does the same to himself and joins them together

I stare at our conjoined fingers and gasp in realization

A blood oath..

Pulling away he cleans up my cut with his shirt and takes me to the bathroom "I'd never hurt you..I love you too much"

but is it love? or is it lust?

what if its just obsession? what if he doesn't actually love me and he's just confusing it that its love when he's just obsessed?

I start overthinking, thinking about Him, thinking about everything thats happened in my life I start to panic

the abuse

the assault

the fighting

the urge to give up

the urge to leave everything behind

the stalking

 people leaving my life

what is more to be dealt with?

 I grab onto his bicep breathing heavily, my eyes tearing up "I-I c-cant" I sit down on the floor grabbing my hair, pulling at it closing my eyes tightly "n-no no no" repeatedly shaking my head at the images running in my mind

My breathing erratic I notice my vision blurring "D-d-damiano?" 

"Im right here come on" I feel him pick me up but then everything goes black

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Damiano

I really wish she didn't go into that room, I really wish it never happened

I didn't like seeing her go full panic mode, yea I killed all the men she's talked to in her life even the ones that Looked at her the wrong way and the ones that even fucking glanced, she's mine

she  always has been and it will stay that way

I don't want her to run away that's a pain I don't want to imagine, I love her too much and Now soon enough when she wakes up she won't look at me the same she's gonna see me as a monster and I don't want that

Im attached to her enough

I need her..

I WANT her to stay

but thats gonna be hard now isn't it?

Looking at her passed out on the bed I caress her cheek gently and check her pulse making sure she's still alive and kiss her on the head softly

"please don't leave, I've been looking for you everywhere and when I finally found you I was the happiest man alive, I love you darling its too bad you lost your memory in that accident and your parents didn't want me to see you anymore, I lost you completely but here we are, Hoping you don't leave once again.." I mutter to myself..

sitting on the couch on my computer emailing some employee's from work, I sit there and think about everything

thinking about the fact I might lose her once again..

that she might leave my arms once again and I won't know where she is..

looking at her laying in my bed I sit there, I hope you wake up and still choose to be mine..

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damn..this book is a mess lmao

like it needs some work you can't lie lmao But ayy hope you enjoyed this lovely chapter and I'll be back with another one on a lovely sunday enjoy pretty daisies ~Soul~