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Part 18. All I see is YOU

Part 18. All I see is YOU

Time line — Becky filming Mon and Namo at the same time.

"This is so hard. I feel like I'm having bi polar or something." Becky said scratching her forehead as the stress of playing two opposite roles at the same time is slowly kicking in to her system.

"Awww you can do it Nong! I believe in you." Freen said, supporting her as always.

"Do you ever feel like you don't know yourself anymore because you neither Mon and Namo but you can not be Becky all the time." She said as if she is entering a phase of life — an existensial crisis.

"Nong... I heard it is pretty common for actors to feel that way so be kind to yourself. You will definitely pull this off."

Becky sigh deeply and look directly at Freen.

"How about you? Who do you see when you look at me now? Do you see Mon or Namo?" She asked.

Freen looked back at her. She took time to answer the question. Phi is looking at Nong, she seem relax and already have an answer in mind but she choose to give space first for her thoughts.

"I see you. Phi knows who you are so I don't get confuse. You are my Nong Becky to me."

"You don't see my characters on me? What does it mean?" She ask to clarify. She is weighing if it is good or bad... good because Phi knows her but at the same time bad cause it also means that she is not effective actor.

"When the camera is rolling and we are on the set...I am Khun Sam and you are Mon. I saw you act as Namo too, and I am convinced that during that time, you are indeed the naughty kid Namo. But when off camera, I see you as Becky. You might have some glimpse of Mon and Namo from time to time in off cam but Phi still see the real Becky in you."

Becky smile.

Freen's explanation made her heart at ease.

"Thank you Phi. It feels good that you are here to remind me for who I am." She is trully grateful that Freen is always on her side and she knows she is here to pull her head up in situation like this.

"I will always be here. Just be yourself." She said and rub Nong's back.

The little one smile brightly with her renewed confidence with herself through the help of her Phi.

Becky successfully wrap up the GAP the series and LLL taping. She struggle a lot but she always pull it through just like Freen said. Freen saw all the hard work and perseverance of the younger all through put the process and she is happy and proud of her like always.

LLL Press conference... *you all know what happened here, Freen came and suprised Becky with boquet of flowers.*

"You are here! I did not expect you to come up the stage." Becky said when they are on their way to cinema.

"Why? You did not saw me?"

"I saw you and I saw the boquet online but I was thinking you will give it to me backstage." She said as she knows Freen is always reserve and shy. "You did not feel any anxiety going up? I was looking at you... you are so relaxed earlier."

"I'm fine. Shy a little bit because fans scream when I stood up but nothing to worry about. I want to show my support to you tonight."

Becky heart melted with that statement. Freen rarely pull this type of grand gesture publicly so Nong really appreciate it. This is her first movie and Freen is here to support her like she promise a year ago.

"I'm grateful to have you by my side." She said teary eyed a bit as she pull Freen closer to her.

"Aww.. do not cry, your make up will be ruin. You should be beautiful in all of your photos tonight." Freen said and carress her cheek to stop her from getting emotional.