How I lost Him[BLEEDING HEART]

Chapter Twenty Four - Mentally Ill

Years ago
Mental institution

Young Andy was tied up screaming and struggling the hold of the nurses laughing like a maniac with blood stains on his lips, his parents watched him including Jennifer, Ortega and his mom and his twin sisters, they all watched in awe, finally he was sedated and fell into deep slumber.
"Please what's wrong with him? .... This has become to much"
"Mrs Elle please calm down, I know it can be hard at times like this"
"Yes he behaves strangely"
"If I may ask when did it start?"
"It started few months back I don't know why"
"Madam according to my research and diagnosis your son has DID"
"Man go straight to the point", Marshal raised his voice in annoyance. " I don't know why you are wasting our time tell us what's wrong"
"Pardon me sir, well your son here has DID which is Dissociative Identity Disorder, this is when a person has different personalities which causes him to act differently all the time it's caused by experiencing trauma during early childhood it's like he doesn't have a good or stable environment or home for his mental health"
"Oh my goodness my poor baby", Mrs Elle cried out.
"Are you accusing us of bad upbringing? Bad parents? What exactly does this has to do with childhood?"
"Sir I suggest you don't raise your voice this is a mental institution you might as well be mistaken as a mental patient", one of the nurses spoke up
"What did you say to my husband?" , Mrs Sandra Marshals mistress spoke up.
"No need Sandra, he brought a gun then shot the nurse, everyone gasped except Marshal and his family they where used to all this"
"Sir I apologize" , the doctor replied fear evident in his eyes
"You better if not you might be next, clean that up" , he spoke to his men.
"Sir I would examine and spend time to know more about your son and to know what his trauma was ,cause from what I just experienced right now its really obvious where all this started from, I would also see how many personalities he has which one surfaced which is which this will take time, we would try our best."
"Thank you so much doctor"
"It's my job Mrs Elle, thanks".

BACK TO PRESENT
Andy POV

Its not a new thing for me again, some people think it's cool having DID cause you get to explore other personalities but no , who would even think that? They are more crazier for even thinking that I guess, cause this kills more than any diseases cause most times after the other personality leaves for the other to surface  I began to feel all that I have done and regret sometimes I can't even remember anything at all. I remember waking up in different places dressing differently talking differently acting differently it's like when a parasites takes host in the body of its prey I feel like shit everyday knowing and saying this isn't me and then I ask my self who is me? Who am I really it keeps messing with my mental health like am going Crazy. Today am good the next am an evil psychopath the next am a depressed motherfucker the next am a fuck boy a party guy a cheat and heartbreaker and the next am a wealthy spoilt unserious brat who spends money lavishly like a fool then lastly me, it was later known to my family and I that I have this six personalities.
Red is the name of my psychopath personality , Rim is the name of my wealth spoilt spending brat personality , Culture is the name of my Good personality , Landon is the name of my fuck boy personality, Dip is the name of my depressed personality and lastly me Andy the original owner of the body making it six.

Dubai vacation
I also remember Dubai vacation It's not that I don't spend or get expensive things for Rachel but this I just know that Rim which is my spoilt spending personality has resurfaced.
Normally I would gift her expensive things but Rim resurfaced he was over exited that he got her to many expensive things and as if that was not enough Landon my fuck boy personality got involved the night in Dubai he also got excited wanting more from Rachel. I could also remember the night I came back so late Red my psychopath personality resurfaced I remember killing two people just to ease my anger and am so glad Red didn't hurt Rachel but he surely said a lot of hurtful things to her and Landon came out again fucking her mercilessly then to make it worst after all the fight Dip my depressed personality came out that's all those time i was sad and my good personality came out Culture it was all the times I was begging Rachel it wasn't me but it was Culture but after I got my senses and saw all what they had done I had to make it up to Rachel by taking her on Dubai vacation but still they came out again as always.
I could never get a hold of my self never each time I felt relaxed or tried anything they would always show up spoiling it, I wonder how Rachel never found out because I remember Rachel asking why I act strange sometimes oh if only she knew what I was passing through would she forgive me would she realize that I hard no hold or control over my own body and my father controlled my life and then my personality made it even worst. I still remember chef Basil words all the times he told me I cheated and shouldn't blame Rachel for cheating cause I did too,yes I cheated but it wasn't me it was my other personalities I knew I should have told her but I was scared of her leaving me would she believe me? But at the end I used my hands to chase her away,but I would agree that after Rachel and I divorced i slept with Jennifer and I have a son I agree I hid a lot of secrets am a bad person I was born into the life of crime I was made to monitor and ruin her life I was born as the heir and yet I fucked it all up I fell in love if I didn't this would have been easier I wouldn't have to feel any pain any regret or guilt but yes I fucked up I also disobeyed my father I fucked up by agreeing to his words and this mission in the first place I fucked up by Lying to her if she got to figure out all the secrets and that everything was a lie I would be done for I just can't the guilt is eating me up am a horrible person am a monster a loser and I need her to forgive me, I pray God forgives me.