*Estelle's Point Of View*
Parties should have to distract you from everything and provide you happiness and pleasure. But I think the yesterday party was a torture for me. But let's take it from the beginning of this horrible Friday.
Yesterday morning I wake up and I went to school dreading of my classmates as always. But for my own good shake,nothing bad happened today at school. Everyone treated me quite good than ever had before. And I passed some good time that lovely moment thinking about the party at Amanda's house.
I returned home from school and I ate my lunch while having great time with my family.
Later, I had to decide what to wear at this party. But I was pretty sure that nobody would care about what I will wear,cause nobody that I know cares about me. Let alone,nobody of those strangers I will meet today at the party will care about me.
So,I wear my favorite long black dress which was so comfortable and kind of formal. Also, I wear my black hoop earings and the perl necklace that my mom had bought my in my last birthday.I was feeling classic and elegant.
After that,I decided I will not put any makeup,cause I really want to look natural and I think I dont need makeup.Nothing feels as great as fresh skin. Plus,I feel more confident in my own natural skin than putting tones of makeup.
Penny called and told me that she and her father will pick me up at 9 pm with Skyler and Ellen. And they finally came exactly on time. Penny's father droved us to Amanda's house which was too far away from my house.
Finally,we arrived at her house in which the party have been held. Her house was extremely big,and it has a modern decor that I liked it.
But I felt horrible facing a lot of teenager boys and girls drinking alcohol and making out. That's why I loath those horendous parties. I was feeling that everyone glaring at me and I felt uncomfortable.
I didn't have the slightest idea of what's going on in this party. There was no food,only alcochol with I abhor. All the guests was drinking a lot of those beverages.In addition, rock music was playing all the time so loudly that maked me having headache.
Ellen,Skyler and Penny were drunk while they were drinking some of those cocktails. And they have left me wandering at the house without company.
While the party was monotonous and uninteresting,I was feeling awful. And then all changed through worse...
I decided to mingle with some quys who playing board games and eating pizza. I din't know where they found the pizza,but I was going to take a pizza slice from them.I thought those guys were looking for company because they looked bored. I greeted them and I started a conversation,even though it sounds strange for someone like me, who always feeling sky,to talk to some strangers.Although,at the startI was getting nervous but then we really got along with them.
Surprisingly enough,one of those boys came close to me and gave me his glass of cocktail so as to taste it. After having drunk three glasses of cocktail,I was a litle tipsy. But I thought it was not something to worry about. Well,I thought.
Suddenly,the boy who offered me his drink approached me and he started talking to me. But I was starting flirt with him,without knowing why. But know,I understand why. I was so fucking drunk,that I did things I didn't want to do.
I can't remember a lot because every moment after that is vague. I remember his name is Gregg and we are in the same age. Beyond that I couldn't forget that I kissed him and he kissed me back. Only in the thought of it,I want to throw up.
Finally,Ellen found me and she picked me up. After a while,Penny's father came and went us home.
I returned at home at 4AM and the only thing I can bring in my mind is my parents yelling at me because I was drunk. And then,I wake up this Saturday morning without knowing more.
But,oh,I just remember something.
I gave to Gregg my phone number...
And maybe he will call me...
And I think I messed up everything!!
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All the love,
Stella xx
