*Estelle's P.O.V*
Irritation. Frustration. Annoyance.
Those were my emotions after I figured out that Louis left the hospital while I was at home fighting with my brother. Probably his doctor gave him the discharge note earlier from the predifened day. All happened so quickly and I didn't even manage to say goodbye to him.
But, to be honest, I was feeling that somehow he left me there alone, cause now I couldn't address to someone about what happened with my brother. I was feeling totally all alone for fuck's shake. He was the only one that I could trust with those things that happening to me. But ,unfortunately,now Louis wasn't there while I was in need to talk to him.
After all, I didn't feel good so I begged my dad to drive me back at home. During our way to home, I was thinking that all those days I was under the impression that maybe something happening between me and Louis, but I was proven wrong for one more time. Cause nothing happen as you wish. That is a rule of life.
What is more annoying is that now I don't have the chance to keep in touch with him. That is so difficult because we didn't manage to develop a strong relationship so far. I mean we leave far away from each other and we are so differen characters because we want and we like different things. That's why we don't have something in common that can forge our relationship.
As soon as I got my way to home, I headed to my room as fast as I could, because I didn't want to bump into my annoying brother.
I believe that his attitude towards me has changed the last few days through worse and I really can't stand the fact when people are changing their personality.
On the other hand, I think that maybe some people did not actually change, maybe we just never knew who they really were. So that's why my brother, Peter, finally reveal who he really was and I hate his fucking rude personality.
I put on my pyjamas and I laid in my bed, because I was feeling exhausted. After hours of thinking, I realized how pissed off I was with Louis because he left the hospital without telling me anything not even a goodbye. Or maybe that wasn't his fault but as I am rethinking it I think that if we really was caring about me, he would have been waiting for me to come to the hospital in order to say our goodbyes'. And I was completely stupid that I thought that maybe he was caring a lot about me as he told me last night when we were together.
I picked my phone and I put on my headphones because I really wanted to listen to some good tracks im order to relax my mind from overthinking things.
Suddenly I decided to reread my messages on my mobile phone so as to kill my time and then I saw the last message that I got some days ago. My body froze again at the thought of someone sending me that message. How could have I already forgot that creepy message that an unknown person sent me when I was on a date with Gregg? I was reading again and again that message.
"He is gonna hurt you"
And then I thought that I sould ask my friends,Ellen, Skyler and Penny if they sent me that message as a prank. If this is true, I have to state that this message scared the hell out of me.
Finally, I cried myself to sleep thinking that none really cares about me and believing how shitty my life has become.
First of all my dad and my father didn't give a shit about me. I think that they dont care as much as they care about my brother.
Also,my brother became a person that I am scared. He is acting so different when I am around him after the day that he meet that girl that gets on my nerves,Marie. I am always fighting with him because he never fights for me.
Additionally, I dont have any real friends and the only friends that I have live far away from me and it is so difficult to hang out with them at weekends.
All the more,I hate going at school because I am afraid of my schoolmates who always threaten me. They hurt me with their actions and their words and I can't stand that.
And I am not capable to see Louis again after the day he left from thw hospital. And that hurts me. A lot.
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*HEYY THAT CHAPTER WAS JUST A FILLER SO AS TO KNOW ESTELLE BETTER
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