Justin x Oliver Oneshots

𝕻𝖗𝖊𝖙𝖊𝖓𝖉 (𝕷𝖔𝖛𝖊 𝕷𝖔𝖛𝖊 𝖔𝖗 𝕵𝖚𝖘𝖙 𝖑𝖔𝖛𝖊? 𝕻𝖙.2)

Song Requested by .<3   I'm using the meaning of this song for the story more than the actual lyrics. "touches on themes of identity, desperation, and the concept of living with or in someone else"

It's also a part 2 to Love Love or Just love? because I feel it fits well together

Oliver's P.O.V

I've been feeling more drawn to Justin lately. The feelings of wanting to brush his hair out of his face or wrap my arms around him are immense. He circles through my mind constantly and I've finally settled on the only option.

I like him.

A bit ago, I thought that things like this could happen with a person you love, platonically or familially. I thought I loved Justin as a brother or friend. I was wrong. Sure, I want to hug my mom when I see her or mess around with the guys when I feel lonely. However, this feeling was different, a constant need, desperation even, to be close to J.  

"Oli? You good man?" Regie sits next to me.

"Just thinking about someone."

"Someone, huh? Who?" He raises an eyebrow at me. He flips his phone around in his hand over and over again. 

"Yeah." I pause for a second. "I want to express my feelings but there's an issue."

He looks at me, waiting for me to continue. He is sitting sideways on the couch so he is fully facing me. 

"The person is Justin. I like a guy."

"Which part of that is a problem?" Regie tilts his head. "Because last I checked liking a guy isn't an issue."

"I know that. I mean liking Justin. We're all in a group and what if something happens between us and it gets awkward or something? We could ruin everything."

"First of all, don't get stuck in the what ifs, that'll make it all worse, trust me. Second of all, you don't need to worry about the rest of us, even if you're our leader, we can figure things out for ourselves."

"Ok."

I get up to go to my room on my way upstairs I see Justin sitting in the kitchen talking to Ryan. I don't want to be creepy but I stay there, listening to whatever it is they were talking about.

"I can't accept it," Justin was saying. "no matter how much I want to."

Justin's P.O.V.

I've known I liked Oli for a couple of weeks, I figured it out after his, Darren's and Regie's flirting video. The way he could make me blush so hard with barely any action or word drove me crazy. The thought of him is constantly in my head and it might just kill me. This is the first time I've ever liked a guy and one of my friends, at that.

I tried finding every excuse for the feelings I have, desperate to have any other reason than loving him. It never worked. Besides, the questions I have about this kill me just as much. Am I gay or is he just special? But then again there's being bi too.... How will I come out to everyone? The guys, my family, and him. How do I tell him?

I finally decided to talk to Ryan about it. I trust him the most and he will be willing to help me. I roll out of bed and turn off my phone. I make my way downstairs and find Ryan in the kitchen, eating ramen and scrolling on his phone as he leans on the counter. 

I sit down across from him at the island on one of the stools. "Can I talk to you?"

Ryan looks up at me and then puts his phone down, giving me his full attention. "Of course, what's up?"

"Umm... I've been having weird feelings for a guy and I think I like him." I look down at my hands which are fidgeting with the case on my phone.

"That's great J!" I look up to see Ryan smiling, then soon the smile fades. "But I have the feeling you don't think so."

"Well, I've just never liked a guy before and I don't know how to identify with it or if I should come out. I don't even know if I should tell him." I try to look at Ryan but my eyes are going everywhere in the kitchen except for him.

"Well, who is it?" He raises an eyebrow at me.

"Oli." I whisper. Ryan still heard me though.

"REALLY?" Ryan seems overly excited for me.

"SHHHH. Not so loud goddammit." I reach over the counter to try and cover his mouth but he steps back.

"I'm not seeing the issue here." Ryan says.

"Like I said, I've never liked a guy. I cant accept myself for it. I see other gay couples and think, yay! or good for them, but when it comes to myself, I just think negative."

Ryan doesn't say anything so I repeat myself. "I can't accept it, no matter how much I want to."

"Justin," Ryan comes around the island to sit next to me. "I don't think you liking a guy is the problem. You've been through bad relationships and I think, well, you feel not acceptable for love, regardless of who it is."

"Maybe."

"Don't give yourself such a hard time. I can't believe I'm saying this but, listen to your heart not your head. Tell him sooner than later, don't make yourself regret anything." I nod along to his words. "I'll be here no matter what happens, ok?" 

"Ok." 

"Good." Ryan gets up and leaves. I just stay in my chair thinking about what Ryan said.

Then Oli walked in. "What was that about? It looked serious." He says as he reaches into the cupboard for a cup.

"It was nothing."

Oli only looks me up and down, not believing me. He fills his cup with water before sitting next to me.

"You sure it was nothing?" He was turned towards me on his stool. 

I only turn toward him. "No."

"Are you going to tell me?" He tilts his head. "I mean, you don't have to it's jus-"

"I like a guy," I cut him off. "And it's you."

I whispered the last part but he heard it. What is with everyone and having super hearing?

"Really?" A smile started to grow on his face. 

"Yeah." 

I got pulled into a hug while he whispered the words, "I like you too."