|Die for you.| Tom Kaulitz

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As soon as the words left Bills mouth I felt like the worst person on the world, I should've stuck around. I was selfish.

Bill looked angry, he had every right to be. I also sensed a look of relief, like he had been waiting for me. My heart ached seeing him so confused, he definitely wanted to scream at me and hug me at the same time.

"Bill- I I should've checked in. I'm sorry."

"Don't say sorry to me."

I sighed, burying my fave in my hands. I should've been a better friend, left all my shit with Tom aside to check on my friends. I hope Bill and Jenny will forgive me, I need them.

I felt Toms hands on mine, pulling them away from my face. I hesitated before looking at him, expecting him to be angry also, instead he looked like he wanted to comfort me. This was relieving, I can't have him upset with me too.

"Hey, It's gonna be okay. Bill is just upset that you left but Jenny's drinking is not your fault, I saw her start to drink more before you even left." Tom said in a quiet Tone, obviously trying not to irritate Bill further.

"He will come around, just be gentle with him."

I nodded and pulled Tom in for a hug, I don't know what i'd do if he wasn't here with me. His familiar cologne and cigarette scent engulfed me, it was a comfort at this point instead of an annoyance. Tom slowly rubbed his hands up and down my back as I clung onto him, probably looking like a desperate whore. I didn't care.

I pulled away and gave Tom a small smile, motioning towards Bill. He nodded and gave me a thumbs up, a cheesy smile on his face. Bill was sat on the couch, cigarette in hand with a blank stare. He looks exhausted, not like the Bill I know. I hesitantly sat beside him, his eyes staying focused on whatever he was looking at.

"Bill... I never meant to hurt you. I didn't know what was best for me at that point."

He slowly lifted his hand and took a slow drag from the cigarette, his eyes squeezing shut from the smoke. I always loved to admire Bill, he was more beautiful that he would ever know. Sometimes I found myself feeling jealous of him.

"You could have kept in touch at least, I was worried about you. I missed you." Bills voice was soft now, he was truly hurt. My heart felt like it was shattered at this point.

I took a few steps forward, bill got the hint and we collapsed into each others arms. It felt so good to hug him again, I really considered Bill a best friend, he was always there for me no matter what.

He started to sniffle, further breaking my heart. I wrapped my arms tighter around bill slender form, his face buried in my neck. There was nothing to stop the tears from rolling down my cheeks now. There was nothing more that I needed than to have my friends back.

"Bill, I missed you so fucking much. I thought about you every day." I said between sobs, he was crying now too.

I pulled away to look at Bill with his black eyeliner was smudged now, somehow it still looked good on him. While wiping his tears a small laugh escaped him, lightening the mood.

"Look at us, we're a mess." He wiped my eyes with his thumbs. I gave Bill a playful shove, his smile grower wider.

"Let's hang out, the three of us." I said motioning Tom over. He took two long strides over to me, a mischievous smirk forming. Before I knew it Tom had me hung over his shoulder and running towards the couch, loud and ridiculous laughs erupting out of all of us.

***

We were all relaxing on the couch, just after finished a second movie. I was laying with my back against Tom with my legs rested on Bills lap.

"Jenny is flying back next week, so I think we should all be there at the airport when she lands." Bill said with a small smile. I never expected all of this to happen to me, getting cheated on, almost losing my friends, and most of all being absolutely infatuated with Tom Kaulitz.

"I have to get all of my stuff from James's house tomorrow." Tom tensed behind me.

"I'm coming with you." He said immediately.

"No, Tom. I'll be fine."

"Ava, if you're going to be around that dickhead i'm going to be there."

Tom being protective over me made me excited in a way, it was definitely a turn on. Im sure he knew this since he was tracing small gentle circles on my thigh. Even the most delicate touch from Tom made me whole body tingle, I was for sure down bad for him. I leaned back to look at him, the usual smirk spreading across his face.

"Bill, we're gonna head out." Tom gave me a small push to stand up, him quickly following.

Bill gave a cheeky grin and a wink, earning laughter from both Tom and I. Tom grabbed my hand and pulled me out of the house, us both hurrying into the car.

After the quick car ride due to Tom speeding the whole way, we both practically ran inside. Tom slammed the door behind us, I was quickly pushed up against that same door. Toms lips immediately connected with mine, a warm feeling covering my body as his hands found its place on my hips.

"I've wanted to kiss you all day." He said between heavy breaths, my whole body was shivering at this point.

Without warning Tom picked me up and carried me to the bed, throwing me down and ripping off his shirt. His muscles now on full display made me even more excited. I bit down on my bottom lip as he leaned over me, kissing me softly. He pulled my pants off as we deepened the kiss, I lifted my hips up and my pants were on the floor in a second. Tom was eager. He made quick work of getting me completely naked, everything article of clothing joining my pants on the floor. I pulled Tom by his belt, undoing it and pulling his pants down.

"I wanna fuck you." He said with a lustful stare.

"Please?"

"I like when you beg, do it again."

"Please, Tom. I want you to fuck me."

He made quick work of pulling off his boxers and putting a condom on. He grabbed me by my thighs and pulled me swiftly across the bed, positioning himself between my legs. I gave him a nod and a smile. He returned the smile and placed a soft kiss on my forehead.

He slowly pushed himself inside of me, sending a short burst of pain through my body. I gripped onto his arms and he slowly moved in and out.

"Does that feel good?" He said in a breathy tone.

I nodded.

"Speak, Ava."

"Yes... It feels amazing" I forced out between moans.

Tom quickened his face, letting out a groan each time he pounded inside of me. His hands kept a tight grip on my sides, causing him to deeper with each thrust.

My nails were digging into his skin now, the sensation of him inside of me better than I could've imagined. My moans were louder than ever, I was practically screaming but I didn't care. No one has ever made me feel this good.

Tom released one of his hands from my side to start rubbing my clit, sending me into an explosion of sensations. His groans and small whimpers were the best part, he tried to hold it in but they would slip out every now and then making me feel even more lustful.

"Baby i'm gonna come." Tom panted.

I nodded in response, unable to form words at this point. Tom continued to rub my clit while he used the last of his strength to pound into me at a extreme fast pace. My whole body jerking upward as the sensation came over me, I couldn't hold it any longer. Tom looked as if he was about to combust if he didn't let it go. We both gave each other a look signaling that we were ready.

Tom and I both exploded in ecstasy at the same time, our moans enveloping each other. My whole body felt like it was on fire, the extreme pleasure immediately putting me into a calm zen like state. Tom pulled out but was still leant over me, his face and body covered in sweat.

"Holy fuck." Was all he said before collapsing on the bed beside me, us both basking in the after affects of what we both just experienced.