|Die for you.| Tom Kaulitz

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I woke up to Tom snoring in my face, perfect. His mouth was parted slightly open and his arms draped over me lazily. I don't think i'll ever get tired of this. I slowly slid out from under him, being very careful not to disturb his sleep.

Tom always look so angelic when he was asleep, it warmed my heart to see him so peaceful. most of me just wanted to lay in that bed with him forever but of course I had deal with getting me belongings from James's apartment. I was dreading having to see him, having to face what once was.

James made me happy, I felt secure when we were together. Everything was normal and great until it wasn't. Part of me wishes I could just go back and make it that he never cheated, but I can't deny the feelings I had blossoming for Tom. He made me feel alive, excited for every moment we could spend together whether it was something eventful of not. We just get each other in a way I never thought possible.

As I was pouring a cup of coffee I heard Tom shuffle into the kitchen, his eyes were puffy and his hair looked rough. A smile spread across my face as his current condition, sleepy and adorable.

"Sleep well?" I asked as I handed him a cup of coffee.

"Well after last night's events I slept like a rock." He said with his usual smirk.

"Never happening again." I gave him a playful punch in the arm.

"Like you could resist all this." He said motioning towards himself. We both erupted in laughter as his corny joke. This was by far my favorite side of Tom.

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Tom and I pulled up to James's apartment, a sinking feeling hitting me as soon as it came into view. I knew I needed to get my stuff but I was seriously considering saying fuck it and buying all new stuff. I didn't want to face James.

Tom gave my leg a squeeze, his usual gesture to reassure me. I gave him a small smile and exited the car. Each step closer to the door filled me with more dread. My knuckles connected with the door, a long sigh leaving my lips.

The door swung open to a disheveled looking James, he's clearly been on a bender. His hair was a mess and he was still wearing pajamas. If i didn't know better, I probably would've felt bad. He looked like shit.

"I'm just gonna get my stuff, I'll be quick."

"Did you have to bring your bodyguard?" He said with a scoff. Tom stepped to my side with a hard expression, his arms crossed over his chest. He was definitely giving off a bodyguard vibe.

I pursed my lips and stepped past James, eyeing my belongings immediately. I made quick work of putting everything into boxes, Tom helping to quicken the process. The whole places was a mess, beer bottles and take put trash everywhere. James never let it get like this, but I still don't feel bad.

As I placed my last few belongings in the box I felt James staring at me, his presence weirdly close. I picked up the box and turned to face him, His demeanor gentle and sad now.

"It shouldn't have ended like this." He said softly, probably trying to prevent Tom from hearing.

"No, James. It shouldn't have." I said much louder, Toms head snapping towards us. James sighed and threw his hands up in defeat. I held back a laugh at my ability to irritate him. I wasn't going to run right back to him like nothing every happened because he is using a sweet voice.

"Whatever, Enjoy having zero sex dude." James said directly to Tom.

"I think you're the one who's having no sex, dude." Tom responded, emphasizing the last word.

I forced myself not to smile, not trying to escalate the situation. Tom took the box from me and guided me to the door, keeping his hand on my lower back. I gave James a teasing salute and slammed the door behind me. All the memories being left behind inside that apartment. I was ready to start over, with Tom.

We both got into the car, instantly feeling less tense. Tom leaned in and placed a gentle kiss in my lips. I smiled as our lips connected, Tom doing the same.

"Thank you for coming with me, i'm glad you decided to be stubborn."

"Anything for my girl." He said as he shifted the car in reverse and pulled out of the driveway.

I felt secure with Tom, finally truly happy. Small things like a kiss, a reassuring squeeze, or a sweet comment from him absolutely drove me crazy. I've never felt this way before, was this was falling in love felt like? If it is, I want to feel this for the rest of my life. I want to be around Ton for as long as I possibly can.

I think i'm falling in love with Tom.