|Die for you.| Tom Kaulitz

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It was raining now, the rain beating against my car. It was actually comforting in a way, I didn't have to sit in complete silence and be consumed by my thoughts. I don't even remember how I got here, in this desolate parking lot, with some dumpy bar ahead of me. I think i've been here for a while, but i'm not sure. It could be twenty minutes or two hours, it didn't really matter at this point.

My phone started buzzing beside me, I've been ignoring all of James's calls and texts. I wish he could just get the hint. It kept buzzing, constantly. He wasn't giving up.

I picked up my phone and squinted my eyes at the bright screen. The name on my screen made me sit up straight in my seat and stare at it for a second.

Tom is calling...

My mind was not the only one racing now, my heart immediately felt like it was going to fall out of my chest. He couldn't be calling at a worse time, I was even more stressed and confused now. At the same time, I have nowhere to go and I definitely cant sleep here tonight.

"Hey Tom." I said softy

"Hey you." His husky tone rang through my ears, I felt relaxed at his presence. I let out a long breath and slumped back in my seat.

"What's wrong Ava?"

"Just a rough night, but whats up?"

"I just.. I wanted to really apologize to you. It's been on my mind a lot how I talked to you last night, you didn't deserve that." His tone was soft, endearing.

"Thank you for that."

"Can I see you?" He said quickly, I could sense the eagerness in his voice. It kind of made me happy, I felt wanted.

"Um.. okay. I'll see you soon."

I started my car and gripped onto the steering wheel. I'm not sure if this is a good idea or an awful one, I'll just have to find out.

**

I pulled into Toms driveway and shut off the car, sighing as I rested my head in my hands. I don't know why but I felt guilty, maybe I'm just tired.

I jumped at a soft knock on my window. I looked up and saw Tom awkwardly standing at my window, his hands stuffed in his pockets. He looked incredibly cute with his sweatpants and T shirt on. I smiled softly and opened my car door. He pulled me into a tight hug as soon as I stepped out of the car.

I chuckled and wrapped my arms around him, his strong scent engulfing my nose. He planted a soft kiss on my head and pulled back to make eye contact with me. Soft brown eyes met mine, immediately I felt vulnerable and soft.

"I got pizza, you hungry?" His demeanor was so soft, it was almost like he knew already what had happened. I nodded in response and we both trailed into the house. The smell of pizza and cologne filling the air, an interesting but on brand scent for a house owned by Tom.

We sat side by side at the table, Tom handed me a plate with a slice of pizza. I smiled and immediately took a huge bite. Tom laughed beside me as he chewed his much smaller bite.

"What? I'm starving" I laughed and he just shook his head with a grin on his face. I reached punched his arm playfully, his face turning into a frown as he rubbed his arm.

"You're beautiful" Tom said abruptly, throwing me off guard. My cheeks flushed and I threw my hand over my face. I was absolutely beaming on the inside.

Tom pulled my hand away from my face, my eyes immediately meeting his. He was standing much closer to me now, I couldn't read him right now. I just knew his close proximity made me nervous. He stared down at me with a soft smile on his face, his hand reaching up and tucking some hair behind my ear.

Shit. Shit. Shit.

Fuck it.

I sighed and leaned towards him, our lips connected instantly. It was almost like two puzzle pieces connecting, our lips felt like they were made for each other. He kissed me back so softly, it didn't feel like he was eager to take my clothes off. I smiled against his lips and wrapped my arms around his neck, his were draped around my lower back. We pulled our lips apart and kept eye contact. Once my lips left his they felt cold, I wanted to kiss him forever.

Tom pulled me up off the chair and we headed towards the living room, he pulled me down on the couch with him and wrapped his arm around my shoulders, inviting my head to lean on his shoulder. Sitting here with Tom like this felt right, I didn't think I could ever feel so comfortable with him.

"We can talk about what happened today another time, for now let's get your mind off of it." Tom turned the Tv on and put on a movie. I just smiled and nuzzled into his warmth, pulling the blanket over us. He wrapped his arms around me tightly and kissed my head.

It's so weird to think that I actually felt happy sitting with Tom, months ago I swore I hated him. Now I feel like he is the most important person I have in my life.

We stayed on the couch for a while, enjoying each other's presence and watching the movie. The silence was comfortable, we just simply relaxed together.