If Anything Goes Wrong

Chap 19

Atlas.

I saw him heading out to the exit na para bang nagtatampong bata. Mabilis akong umalis ng stage at hinabol siya palabas.

Shit. Is he mad? Dapat ako ang magalit, hindi ba? Pinaalis niya ako kanina.

I grabbed his wrist.

"Let go, Atlas."

He looks mad. And cute.

"Are you mad?" I asked.

He sighed. "Did you leave the stage? Why? That's rude!"

"I don't care, Kiefer. I said, are you mad?"

Hinawakan ko ang baiwang niya at nilapit ang katawan niya sa 'kin.

He looked away but i caught his chin and made him look at me.

"Baby? Tell me."

Bakit ako ang nanunuyo ngayon? Hindi ba dapat ako ang suyuin?

But he's too cute. Okay lang sa 'kin.

"You're so unprofessional. You shouldn't leave your audience like that!"

"My friend will cover for me, don't worry. Bakit ka galit?"

He tried to get out of my grip on his waist but I just hug him tighter.

"B-bakit hindi ka naga update? You weren't answering my calls either..." mahina niyang sabi.

He called? Himala. I guess he's too drunk and the alcohol swallowed his pride.

"I'm sorry, baby. It was on silent. Thus, i was sulking."

Kumunot ang noo niya. "Bakit? Kasi pinaalis kita kanina? But i really have to, Atlas." He pouted.

I gave him a peck on his lips. "How can i be mad with you? You're just too cute." I chuckled.

Hinampas niya ang braso ko. "Promise me that you'll update me everytime."

I nodded. "Yes, sir."

When i look around and saw no one is here, i kissed him.

It was a long, gentle, ang passionate kiss that i've ever felt.

Everything with him feels like i'm on clouds. His mere existence  is my comfort in this exhausting world.

I'm so down for him, huh?

"I like you, Kiefer."

I want more. I want him.

"I-"

"The fuck?"

We both looked at the person who came out of the exit.

It was his friend. Was it Fil? Fin?

"F-fin..." Kiefer looks so terried.

Was it because he saw us kissing? Ano naman? I think i'm more relieved that way.

"Sorry bro, nakaistorbo ata ako," he said as he left.

"Let go, Atlas. I need to talk to him."

"Why? He left."

He glared at me. "He didn't know that i'm messing around with a guy! A guy, at that."

"What's wrong with 'a guy', Kiefer? Why does it sounds like you hate it so much?"

He sighed. "Atlas, let's talk later. Please," And he left.

Fuck it. I can't understand him. Parang kanina lang we were embracing each other. And now, i can't understand him again.

Was the thought that he'll date a guy disgusting for him?

Or was it disgusting because it's me?

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Kiefer.

I was calling Fin hundred times but he wasn't answering. When I got back in our table, Drake was the only one there.

"Did something happened? Fin suddenly left..."

I cleared my throat. Trying hard not to cry here.

"D-did he say where he's going?" my voice was shaking.

I don't know what i'm trying to prove here, to be honest. Hindi ko nga alam kung ano ang sasabihin ko sa kaniya kapag kaharap ko na siya.

I guess it's because we're close. I feel like i betrayed him by keeping it a secret. But, at the same time, i'm afraid about his reaction to this.

Is this how it really is? Do you get scared like you just committed a fucking crime? Is liking a man... a crime?