I Bicker You

42. Desiderium

Ignore the mistakes, (●'◡'●)

The atmosphere is completely silent as Jeongguk and Taehyung haven't spoken anything since the moment Jeongguk stepped in.

It is too painful to meet Taehyung. The guilt and pain was killing him. He remembers, right after their break up, he enlisted in the military to serve his country and after two years, he went to Japan for studying, just like Taehyung asked him to stay away.

How many times he tried Taehyung to accept him as a friend and in the end after thousands of pleads the elder ended up accepting but they weren't like how they were Seven years ago. Just Hi' now and then, a little conversation that's left hanging.

Even if tried to move on, he couldn't not like Taehyung. The memories were etched in his heart and he can't give up on them.

"So, When did you arrive here?", Taehyung breaks the long silence with his deep voice sipping on his tea and Jeongguk already forgot the tea placed before him as he takes the cup in his hand, looking up at Taehyung who looks away from him.

"Today", He was stupid. It felt like they were doing an interview and to hide all his nervousness and palpitating heart, he takes a sip and clears his voice,

"Nice apartment", Lame start. He wanted to face-palm himself as Taehyung rises a brow at him, still sipping his tea while Jeongguk takes a good look at the surroundings that is elegant. But, they were a lot of cameras, stands, and lighting in the place and Jeongguk can understand. Being a YouTuber isn't easy.

"When are you leaving for Japan?", Taehyung questions as Jeongguk decides to man up and stare at the beauty before him.

"Not till next month", The younger answers staring at how ethereal the man looks before him and his hands urges to take a picture.

"By the way, I saw a girl walking out... I mean I don't mean to, intrude or something-"

"She's No one. Just a hook up", Taehyung answered walking to the kitchen to place the empty cup, ruffling his hair which is pretty long after the buzz cut.

Jeongguk's mouth went into an 'O', acting fool. He tries to smile but quickly composes himself as Taehyung turns,

"And Honestly, I don't do relationships. No love, no pain", ouch. Jeongguk looks down at his lap at what Taehyung is enunciating.

"Oh! I didn't mean you. It is the fact, right?", The elder utters again looking at the carton bag Jeongguk brought him and smiles up at him,

"Thank you, Jeongguk. I appreciate your humbleness", He says and Jeongguk didn't like his name on his tongue. He wanted Kookie or Jungkookie, and now hearing his name from him feels strange. But, he needs to get used to it.

"Umm... Soojin wanted to invite you to the party", Jeongguk really didn't know what to say and spitted out what he could think.

"To tell you the truth, she planned this party weeks ago. She waited for me to be discharged and I wanted to grow my hair and tada! Today is the party. Thank you, Jeongguk but she already informed me", Taehyung's voice was sarcastic and Jeongguk kept quiet.

He can feel that Taehyung didn't want him here and so, he politely stood up, flattening the creases of his pants,

"I'm invited too so, let's meet there. It's nice meeting you after a long time, Tae", Jeongguk bowed formally and saw Taehyung tensing at his words. He quickly suppressed the urge to cry and wore his shoe while the other was utterly silent.

He stood up, glancing at Taehyung who seems to staring at him and he smiles softly at him, 

"I'm sorry, Tae"