This is Recovery. | A SBI Angst|

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omg, the funniest shit is when the ppl I was friends with start talkin' shit about me as if they didn't like me (as a crush) 2 years ago. Girly pop, why did my name even come up in the conversation? Also, you can't be shit talkin' about anyone when your hair looks like whole-ass baby shark. Like you wanna talk shit, babe let's talk about your height. When you reach my eye level we can talk because my neck hurts from having to look down. <3 Also, not to mention you act like your a fucking mafia gang leader. (anyway enjoy this not proofread chapter!!! <3)

I woke up at 5:08 exactly, a little before everyone started waking up. I snook downstairs, taking into account every floorboard that creaks for when I come back up. I opened the highest cabinet. I had to climb the counter because the medicine was too high for me to reach. I search for Xanax, and I find some Advil and Tylenol, but I only take the Tylenol and Xanax, I don't know what it will do, but I know taking a lot of it will do something. I quietly go back to my room, avoiding all the creaky floorboards and turning my doorknob, so that it makes less sound. I grab the letter, and I grab my razor, but the more I think about it I'm not sure my razor will do anything besides make me bleed.
It's thin. 
It's from a pencil sharpener, very small and thin.
I look around my room. I then remember the empty bottle of alcohol under my bed. I reach down and grab it. It was pretty thin glass, but if I smashed it it would be perfect. I smile and put it in my closet with the pills and letters for later.
I want to do this at 8 pm. I'll spend from the moment I wake up till 7:30 pm with my family. I pick out my outfit and get dressed. 
I wanted to be nice, so I decide to make breakfast. I quickly, but quietly go downstairs. I only know how to make French toast, so that'll have to do.
I remember when I tried making lunch for Tommy and Techno and I made them grilled cheese on a hotdog bun because we didn't have normal bread. 
I begin cooking away. When I'm done, Phil is coming down the stairs. He's shocked to see me downstairs at 6 in the morning when I normally get up around lunchtime, I smile.
"Here," I say, handing him a cup of coffee I made for him because I knew he woke up around this time.
"You're up early and you're making breakfast, did you need money or something?" Phil asks.
"No..." I say. I was just trying to do something nice.
"Alright..." Phil says, still quite skeptical. 
"When do you say Tommy and Ranboo will wake up?"
"Probably around like... 7-8?" 
"Eh... I'll just wake them up if they're not up by the time this is done cooking," I say.

When I finish making the French toast, it's around 6:45, I knew Techno would probably be waking up in 5 minutes because he gets up around 7.
I start upstairs and go into Tommy's room.
"Yo, get up! I made breakfast." I say. Tommy groans and rolls around, he accidentally kicks Ranboo with his leg. Ranboo is the one groaning this time. "rise n' shine!" I say, pulling the blankets off them. I leave the room with a job well done. "Oh, hey Techno!" I say when I see Techno leaving his room.
"You're up early. Also, did Dad make breakfast it smells really good?"
"No- I did!" I smile at him, he looks a bit stunned but follows me downstairs. I had already set the table, plates in everyone's usual spot, two French toasts on everyone's plate, and a few extras on a plate in the middle.
"Mmm, it smells good," Tommy says, Ranboo agreeing. We all sit down and begin eating without a word. "it's really good, Dad!" Tommy says.
"Oh- no. I didn't make it- Wilbur did." 
"HUH?" Tommy says shocked. I shrug.
"Just... Eat." I say and continue on with eating. When I finish I collect everyone's plates, rinse them, and put them in the dishwasher, along with all the other dishes in the sink.
"So... What's the plan for today?" I ask.
"Plan...?" Techno asks.
"Well, what do you guys want to do today!? I'm bored of sleeping all day!" I whine.
"We can do like... An obstacle course at around noon time?" Phil suggests. We all agree with that since we have nothing better to do.
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When we arrive at the obstacle course they make us put on gear that we can connect to a clip on the obstacles, so we don't fall to our deaths. There were three main courses. We go to the first one and start climbing the rope to get to the top. We make Tommy go first, so he connects his harness to the little clip, grabs the rope, and swings into the net. He yelps in pain but laughs, so we know he wasn't that hurt. I go next and I know what he means. It does hurt a bit.
"Ow, what the fuck!" I laugh. I climb the net and reach the next obstacle. Me and Tommy start racing ahead of the others. We eventually get to this little tube area, but there were holes between each tube. I go first, I sit in the middle of a tube so now Tommy can't reach the other side.
"Move asshole!"
"aye! Watch your language, that is no way to speak to your superior." I laugh, he rolls his eyes and lies down in the tube. I flick his forehead with my fingers and continue down the tube while he curses me out. Eventually, we get to the end of this course and we have to go down a zipline, I connect my harness to the clip.
"Fuck you, bitch boy!" I say sticking the middle finger up at him with both hands as I go down the zipline. The zipline approaches the ground and I groan out in pain as I get dragged on the ground, I can see Tommy laughing his ass off,
I'm going to miss these moments. 
Tommy comes down next and groans in pain as he gets dragged against the ground. I laugh at him because now he knows how it feels. Phil, Techno, and Ranboo come shortly after us. 
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