Somewhere in your city💫

Somewhere between bliss and numb.

       ~ 2 weeks later~

TRACIYON-
"I'm just saying we could've went today" " I know but I want to do a self care day" "okay so we'll make a day of it" "and vlog it" " umm you can i'll just drop in and out" I laugh a little bit and go into the bathroom. Kae comes around the door and into the bathroom with me leans up against the counter and furrows her brows a little making a sad face. "you don't wanna be in my vlog?" " no its not that I'm just not comfortable on camera" " okay but why'd you laugh like that" " tried to play it off " I say as I take my shirt and my sweats off to get ready to get in the shower. Kae is still by the counter so I go brush my hair and put on my durag, she looks like she wants to say something but doesn't know how she keeps looking from me to the floor back to herself in the mirror she looks at the ground for a second. "come here baby" I say walking up close, taking her hand, and tucking her hair behind her ear " I'm okay " she says wrapping her arms around my waist and laying her head on my chest "you sure" " yeah i'm gonna lay down until you finish" with that she walks out into the room I head back to get in the shower then I pause for a second I walk out into the room and ask I hate to see her hurting... I take a moment and think to myself " wanna join me" she looks up eyes wide but she still looks sad in the face "yes" she  nods and answers in a hush tone so I walk over to lock my door then back to her I kiss her softly all over her face and neck then I start to remove her clothes as I take her hand and walk her backwards into the bathroom. I take a step back while looking her over my eyes get low in lust taking her in I notice her start shivering so I turned on the shower to warm up then pulled her into me so I could hold her close. Once the shower was hot enough I walked her into the water with me we stood there for a while then kae looks up and softly kisses my bottom lip then my lips " I love you" I say between kisses she pauses for a second then whispers " I love you too" against my lips. We continue our shower by bathing, holding, and caressing each other in the water until she was ready to get out and go lay down. Kae and I  help moisturize one another then lay down relax ad have a little skin to skin time, I put on a movie and she actually ended up watching the movie with me. I thought kae was asleep and tried to slip out the bed without her noticing but I failed " hey why you leaving me" she says in a hushed groggy tone "I'm not I'm just hungry" "me too" she says and scoots to the edge of the bed to follow me to the kitchen " what you wanna eat mama" "cereal" she says as we finish getting dressed " and chicken nuggets"  "weird combo but I'll  try it"   I say with a laugh then we  head downstairs and into the kitchen and make our food while watching  WidinOut on my laptop.  We ended up falling asleep in the living room on the chase couch with Kae  in my arms.  I woke up a little early this morning and found myself reminiscing on the time Kae and I have spent together and what our near future will look like. "Wake up baby" I whisper in kaes ear caressing the side of her face with mine. Kae opens her eyes and closes them while hiding her face in my neck, I pull her on top of me so we're face to face " you ready" " No but I have to be for Nessa" " I got you baby"

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Kaelia-
I cant help but feel anger towards the whole situation but I know it stems from pain, 2 weeks ago  I got a call that my brother was killed in a drive by shooting not to far from the projects we grew up in. Traci dropped me off here at home about an hour ago and I've been on my couch crying ever since I walked in. I managed to put on some gospel so I could declutter and clean up because I have to pick up Nessa today to officially move her in with me, my brother left me custody amongst other things so I also have to go meet with his lawyers for the reading of the rest of kacey's will ..its messed up because Kacey was finally getting his life together when he got out he got a real job, became an active member of our family and stopped hustling. He was even talking about going back to school, at his funeral I was mute all I could do was cry. Kacey was more than my brother he was my father figure, protector, and best friend. When our parents passed all we had was each other and we made the best we could out of that now its just me and Nessa.