My Brother My Enemy

Leader Steps In~

I kept running until I was back at the dorm, covered in sweat and tryingt to catch my breath. I walked inside the building and sat on the stairs trying to calm down, but instead I just fell to pieces. The very thing I had been trying to avoid with y/n was happening, and no matter how much I tried to prepare myself for it, I never imagined it would hurt like this. I just sat there, completely broken.
The next day was Sunday, most of the guys decided to take the day and sleep but I had been up all night. Yoongi got in before the sun came up, guess he thought no one would notice.
I decided to take my bike out and ride around to help clear my thoughts. I was more angry than anything, but I couldn't decided if it was because they lied about being just friends, or if it was because they were more than just friends.
I couldn't be angry with y/n if she liked my brother, that wouldn't be fair after all. Yoongi was the one who knew I liked her, he was the one who said we didn't have time to date, HE was the one who lied about how he felt about her. I considered that fact that I wasn't supposed to find out about the two of them last night. My heart wanted to believe it wasn't this grand secret and maybe it was just a random hook up between the two of them. Maybe that was the plan y/n had all along, which is why she didn't want me to come over and hang out with the two them. Is was possible right? If I confronted her about it, she would know I barged into her apartment last night looking to catch them together. After a scene like that she would want to know why I cared so much.
Now the regret was settling in. If I had just told her how I felt maybe this wouldn't have happened. Was all of this my fault? Or was it just not meant to be? The bigger question was, how would I face either one of them when we saw each other next? It was bound to happen today, y/n always came over for Sunday's "family" dinner. Maybe if they acted differently tonight I would have an opportunity to talk to one of them about it. Or...I could pull the leader card. I could tell both of them that their relationship had to stop, and that Yoongi's focus needed to be on the group. Y/n wouldn't argue that, besides just yesterday she was telling me that I had to continue to give them hope for a debut. All distractions had to be cut out in order for us to really commit. My anger was starting to subside, and the leader in me was starting to take over. Call it what you want, but this was what needed to happen.
The sun was starting to set and when I checked the time I realized I had been gone all day. It has been forever since I spent the day with just myself. At that moment a funny thought popped into my head and I wondered if we ever did get the chance to debut, maybe this would be the last day I got it do something like this? Something just for me.
When I got back at to the dorm I could smell dinner from outside that Jin was cooking. Kimchi jjajae, jimin's favorite. Everyone was gathered around the table already talking and laughing, but y/n wasn't here yet. Yoongi was helping Jin in the kitchen so sat at the table and texted y/n.
"Where are you?"
When I looked up Yoongi had taken the seat next to me. I don't think he could tell anything was off, so hopefully it would stay that way until I got a chance to say what I needed to say.
My phone buzzed and I saw y/n had responded to my text.
"Picked up a shift. Come over later?"
I was surprised she took an extra shift on a Sunday, but I was even more surprised she wanted to hang out later. It didn't change anything though, so I decided I needed to make this aware to the entire group.
"Y/n isn't coming so we can eat without her," I said.
"Which is good because there was something I wanted to talk to you guys about."
"Are we in trouble?" Joked Jimin.
"No ones in trouble," I tried to convince. "But I know it's been a year since we started this, and I just wanted to tell you guys how proud I am of us. Y'all are like my family now and I want to keep it that way you know?"
"What are you saying? We won't be family if we don't debut?" Jin asked sarcastically.
"We're family. I guess what I'm trying to say is, regardless of when, we're closer to a debut now than yesterday, and the day before. And I really do think we'll get there."
They guys nodded like they were in an agreement.
"With that being said...we're so close. I think we need to make sure we do everything in our power to not get distracted."
"We don't have time to get distracted," said Jk. "I already go to school and then practice for eight more hours. We don't even have time to sleep."
"I know, I know," I said realizing they might be taking this the wrong way. "I'm not trying to say we're not doing enough. I'm just saying we need to stay focused. If we're tempted to do anything besides what we're doing now, you need to reevaluate what it means to be apart of this."
Looking at their faces they all seemed to agree, Yoongi didn't look the least bit phased.
"I know some of us have jobs, some of us have school, and that's ok. But anything else, and I mean anything that's not going to contribute to the success of this team, just let it go now."
"What about y/n?" J-hope asked. "Is she something that could be considered a distraction for your Namjoon?"
The fact that he was asking me that question made me what to burst into laughter. If he only knew the truth. But, regardless y/n was my friend too, so I guess if I was going to preach to them about staying focused, I had to keep y/n at arms length.
"Yes Hobi. I'll have to talk to y/n and let her know she should probably visit the studio less."
"She's not really a distraction," Yoongi interjected. "She's just taking photos which helps our social medias. It's not like she's getting in the way of anything."
"She's not a member," I plainly said. "I'm seeing her later tonight, I'll talk to her then."
No one tried to argue, even though I could tell my brother wanted to.
After dinner most of the members crashed early to get as much sleep as they could before another full week of practice. Y/n said to stop by around nine so I made sure I was on time. As far as knowing how to bring up tonight's dinner conversation to her I didn't really have a plan. And as far as her and Yoongi went, I also didn't have a plan. I texted her I was outside and she said to just come in when I got upstairs.
When I walked in she had two beers for us waiting on the counter, she had just changed into her pajamas before I got there.
"How was dinner?"
"Good. How was work?"
"Bad," she said. "But I need the money to go home in a few weeks. My little sister is has a recital and I want to be there".
Maybe this was the opportunity I needed to tell her she should probably consider staying a little bit longer when she visits.
"Can we talk?" I asked.
"I thought we were talking?"
"Ha, you know what I mean."
She nodded and grabbed our beers and we made our way to the couch.
"We kind of had a talk tonight about how we know what we have to do in order to debut, and what that means is getting rid of anything that could be considered a...distraction."
"Ok? Sounds wise."
"I guess in some ways...you could be considered a distraction, you know?"
She glared at me as she took a sip of beer like I was crazy.
"And who am I a distraction for exactly?"
"Look, I'm not stupid ok? You have a thing going on with Yoongi, and that's fine and all, but you weren't honest about it and it's gotta stop."
She sat her beer down on the coffee table and looked at me like she was confused.
"I'm sorry. What?"
"Y/n you don't have to lie anymore, ok? I know you have been seeing my brother behind my back."
"Namjoon, what the fuck are you talking about?"
She was unbelievable. The fact that she was willing to keep up with this lie, for what? Was she protecting Yoongi from getting into trouble? Herself? Whatever the reason was, she was pissing me off by refusing to tell the truth.
"What am I talking about?" I said to her. "Why couldn't you just come clean about what you two were doing?"
"Because we haven't been doing anything! Namjoon where did you get this ridiculous idea from?"
"Come on, you two hang out alone, you won't let me join, and when I called you last night you were with him even after you told me you weren't going to see him after all."
"That's what you're basing this on?"
"Why are you being like this? Just admit it!"
"Admit what?! Do you know how insane you sound? First you're saying Im having some secret affair with your brother, and you're accusing me of lying about it!"
"You are lying!"
"Im not! What the fuck Joonie, what's is going on with you?"
"Because I came her last night and the two of you were taking a shower together y/n! If that doesn't say you're hooking up with my brother idk what else does!"
She looked at me like I had just made her sick. She stood up and started pacing. "You came over last night to see if we were sneaking around being your back? You came into MY apartment, announced, to do what? Catch us in the act? Make some huge, dramatic scene before storming out?"
I just sat there looking at the ground shaking my head. I didn't mean to say exactly those words to her, but he we were, having an argument over exactly what I was hoping would never happened.