Making a Choice

Another Episode

⚠️Warning meant of anxiety, alcohol and drug abuse, self harm and suicide⚠️

Boys POV
We got to Sarah's house and JJ knocked
"Sarah open up"
"Omg why are you here so late it's 1:00 in the morning" Sarah said
"Sarah is Maddy here"
"Yes but you can't lose your shit"
"Why would he lose his shit" JB said confused
"She didn't come with me. Rafe brought her here"
"She's in Rafe's room?" JJ asked
"Wait JJ don't go up there!" Sarah said
"Clam down before you go in there" JB said as he grabbed JJ shirt
"Alright I'm clam, I'm clam" JJ said he walked in and saw Maddy in Rafe's bed
"What the fuck" JJ said
"Why you all up in my room" Rafe said
"Why are you here" Mads asked
"JJ be careful what you say" JB said
"Fuck this we're leaving" JJ said

We left and later we took the HMS pouge for a ride
"Can you believe I found her in his bed?!" JJ said
"Clam down you don't know the full story" Kie said
"What story, kie? There's no explanation for being in a guys bed"
"Or maybe your just mad she wasn't in your bed" Pope said
"Your just jealous JJ" Cleo said
"Wait what"
"Nothing kie ignore her"

Maddy's POV
I got to JB's house
"WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK JJ" I said
"Oh here she is" JJ said
"How many times do I have to tell you that me and Rafe are just friends?!!"
"Yeah sure whatever you say"
"We're just like you and John B"
"But we don't sleep in each other's beds!!!"
"NO BUT YOU FUCK OTHER PEOPLE IN HIS BED!!"
"You told her" Kie asked
"No"
"Huh"
"Wait what I thought it was just a kiss" Sarah said
"You have sex with Kiara, and you wanna come at me?! Nothing even happened with Rafe!! He just  help me after you punched my eye and he said I should stay. You are such a fuck hypocrite"
"I'm sorry guys" Kie said
"Fuck this I'm gone" I said and walked away
"Well shit"
"You don't even care. Fuck you dude I'm out" Pope said and walked away
I got a text from Rafe saying 'I need you' and I went to his place once I got there I knocked
"I can't open Mads, sorry" Rafe said
"Rafe it's ok"
"Promise you won't get mad"
"I promise" I said and he opened the door and I saw empty beer bottles, drugs, a card and money
"I didn't mean to I swear, I let you down I'm sorry" he said with tears in his eyes
"No, no hey look at me, you just had a set back we all have one"
"I let my dad get to me he'll never love me like he loves Sarah. No one can care to love me"
"I love you"
"Your just saying that to make me feel better"
"Rafe!! I'm not mad you had a set back I'm mad that you don't think I love you you're my best friend and I'm always here for you"
"Maybe I shouldn't exist"
"Rafe please stop" I said
"Rafe it's ok. I love you, I could never hate you and I'm 100% sure you don't want to hurt me or Maddy" Sarah said
And Rafe let go of the knife
"Shit" he said and I hugged him
"I love you ok" I said
"I don't know how to thank you, I don't know what to do if this happens again" Sarah said
"I'm one call away"
"What if you don't make it in time you should stay for the month"
"Ok my family is are going again so sure"
The next day Rafe woke up
"Listen Anxiety is not such a bad thing, it's like a survival tool right?"
"Everyone tells me that but you know what anxiety wants to make me do it makes me wanna fucking die, it doesn't feel like a survival tool to me"
"Alright let's get you to sleep"

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This part was to help raise awareness for anxiety, alcohol and drug abuse, self harm and suicide. I got this idea from my panic attacks and anxiety and how Rafe is classified as a psychopath but I thought he just needs someone to love him and I feel like Maddy does that, and if you or a family member are  going through this message me on my instgam cause parents and therapist can't understand and sometimes you need someone who you don't know and if you don't wanna to talk to me or I'm unavailable call this number : 1-800-273-8255
Thank you for read and stay safe
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