i'm not broken - billie eilish

red lights

billie's pov

i was falling asleep, major emphasis on was. before i heard the creak of my door which i assumed was pepper. my eyes still closed i heard the door shut, and suddenly a weight was on me.

"billie wake uppp" i heard a familiar voice whine, the same lips the words came from were kissing all over my face. "anna?" i laughed a little, she was never this affectionate. besides maybe the time i stayed over her house, but that was awhile ago.

i opened my eyes slightly, the dull red glow of my lights highlighted anna's face. she was sitting on my lap, legs to each side, looking down at me. "you're so pretty" i said, simultaneously pushing hair behind her ear.

she smiled and kissed me on my forehead without a word, before turning her head and looking at the tv. "anna-" i mumbled, i was still staring at her. i was completely infatuated with her. "hm-?" she replied, turning her head back to face me.

before i could think, i pulled her to me. i needed to kiss her.

annaliese's pov

billie cupped my face with her hands and kissed me like she never had before. i mean she only has once, technically. i, of course, returned it. this one kiss quickly escalated, billie's hands were traveling down my waist, holding me on her lap. my left hand was holding billie's shirt collar while the other was tangled in her hair.

before i could object she broke away from the kiss, readjusting her attention to my neck where she left both delicate kisses and — something my parents wouldn't be too happy about.

quiet moans left my mouth when she did this. i can't help it, it feels good. she makes me feel good. when she stopped, i looked down at her blue eyes staring right back up at me. quickly i noticed her fidgeting with the bottom of my shirt.

"i didn't want to make you uncomfortable by asking-" she said quickly, i really appreciated how much she valued my comfort right now. without hesitation i grabbed the bottom of my shirt and pulled it over my head. now i was just left in a bra and my baggy jeans i had yet to change out of.

billie's pov

"jesus fucking christ" i thought, or at least believed i did. annaliese let out a laugh and covered her face, "shit did i say that out loud" i huffed.

that was kind of embarrassing.

"you're so sweet" she smiled while unclasping her bra before she focused her attention back on my lips. i smiled as she kissed me, of course returning it. i really do think i love her.

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suddenly my door flung open, no warning, absolutely nothing. "yo billie i think that-" finneas began. annaliese screamed and threw herself under my blankets, only her collarbones and head were visible.

"shit dude can you at least knock" i said loudly, i wasn't mad but damn he could've timed that shit better.

"my bad" he laughed, "just let me know when you're free for a second you know i'll be up." he turned around and headed back out of the room. while he closed the door he yelled out, "hey annaliese next time can you keep your clothes on?" you could hear his laughter down the hall.

annaliese's pov

my face turned seven different shades of red out of embarrassment. after finneas had left i rolled over, my face buried in billie's pillows.

"anna are you okay" she asked, i could tell
she was both concerned and trying not to laugh. "i am half naked and your brother SAW ME" i grumbled into the pillow. "i doubt he saw much!" she laughed. "plus we weren't doing that much-"

"BILLIE I HAVE NO SHIRT ON" i yelled into the pillow, which caused her to cackle. "do you want one of mine to put on?" she replied, her hand rested on my bare back.

"mm" i mumbled again. i'd much rather wear one of her oversized shirts right now than put my tank top back on. i didn't plan on coming back put from under her blankets until i was clothed fully this time.

"thank you" i grumbled and threw on the black oversized t-shirt she had tossed at me from her closet. it was super comfortable, and it smelled like her which i enjoyed. god listen to that, i'm so stupid.

billie's pov

"i'm gonna go grab a glass of water" annaliese said as she lifted herself up in my bed and rested her feet on the floor. "okay sounds good, don't let finneas tease you too hard out there" i laughed. causing anna to roll her eyes as she walked out, i don't think she noticed i saw the small smile across her face.

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it had been about 10 minutes and i could hear finneas' and anna's laughter from the kitchen. i'm so glad they get along.

"at least she isn't taking what happened to heart" i laughed to myself and rolled over in my bed, away from the door. suddenly, anna's phone screen lit up as someone called her. there was no contact name, just the red heart emoji followed by "S". strange.

debating calling anna in to answer the call herself, i shrugged and answered for her. bad idea? probably. but curiosity killed the cat or whatever the fuck.

"hey baby girl" a guy spoke through the phone as soon as i picked up. "uh, hello?" i responded. never have i been more confused, was she seeing someone? did she just not tell me? god i'm so stupid. "who's this? you don't quite sound like annaliese." the guy spoke through the phone, laughing at the end of his sentence.

i had no response, i didn't know what to say. so i hung up.

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