Unwanted Love

Rejection

Kenny McCormick

I sat in class, overthinking last night. I guess I was dating my enemy now. Or at least fake dating. But only I knew that.

Hopefully he was just using me as I was to him. "Mr. McCormick? Staring off into space again, I see?"

Ms. Choksondik said waving her hand in front off me I rolled my eyes. "Fuck you! Bitch!" I said.

Good thing my parka always muffles my voice, or else I'd be in big trouble. "What?" I sighed and pulled my parka down slightly.

"I said I was just thinking about the lesson," I lied. She crossed her arms. "Mhm. Yeah right," She scoffed.

She walked over to her desk and continued blabbering. I faded her voice out and scanned the classroom for butters.

He was sitting in the back, which was strange for him. And he also wasn't wearing his normal teal sweater.

Instead he was wearing a dark purple hoodie, it fit him nicely. He was picking at his nails.

He seemed sort of....paranoid? His eyes widened and his cheeks got redder. That's weird.

I continued to stare at him for the rest of the lesson. The ball rang and butters immediately jumped up. He walked out of the classroom before anyone else.

Everyone stared at him. I gathered my stuff and chased after him. I was finally going to grow some balls and man up.

I went into the hall way but he had disappeared. That's strange. I'd just have to talk to him later.

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Butters seemed distant. He was usually smiling and happy, but today he was more...Ehhh, I don't know how to explain it.

He barely even talked to anybody. He barely acknowledged me. I was his best friend!

What was going on with him? I knew he had family problems...but did they get this bad? Maybe it's something personal and I shouldn't be nosy.

But was I being nosy? No. I was just looking out for him. That's what friends do.

I finally caught him outside. He was....smoking? "Butters?" I asked softly.

He quickly threw his cigarette on the floor and stomped on it. "Heyyy kenny!! Didn't see ya there," he nervously laughed.

"I didn't take you for much of a smoker," I told him, leaning against the brick wall. "I just do it to release stress," he murmerd.

"Oh yeah? You stressed today?" I asked. He shrugged. "Kinda. It's just one of those days, Yknow?"

I nodded and stared at him. "You got any more of those?" I asked pointing to the cigarette on the snowy white ground.

"Hmm? Oh no, that was my last one," he told me. I nodded. Now your chance Kenny, don't be a pussy!

I looked back at him. Then at his lips. They looked so...kissable and soft. I stood up off the wall and walked in front of him.

"Ken?" He asked nervously. I held his face in my hand and started to lean in.

I was just about to kiss him, when....

He put his hand in front of his lips. I looked at him. He was cringing hard. "Sorry bud....I just don't like you in that way," he mumbled.

My heart dropped to my stomach. I had been rejected before....but this time it stung. "Oh! Sorry...I didn't know what I was thinking,"

I quickly said before walking away. I was crushed. How could I have been so stupid?!

I went into the school bathroom and locked myself in one of the stalls. I sat on the closed toilet seat and let out a big sigh.

I really wanted to cry. But I preferred not to, especially in the school bathroom. And crying over rejection?!

That's....ew. How else would I describe it? It isn't butters' fault that he didn't like me.

I ruined our friendship. Like, permanently. Fuck you Kenny! I thought to myself.

This was dumb. Everything was dumb. I hated that I still liked butters. I guess feelings don't immediately go away after being rejected.

What was I going to do the next time I saw him? Maybe I could continue being his friend and act as if nothing happened.

Maybe I could try winning over his heart little by little. Maybe I could just avoid him. This wasn't fair. I didn't like making decisions.

I sighed once I heard the bell ring. I didn't really enjoy class, but it was better than staying in a bathroom stall and moping.

I stood up and made my way towards my next class.

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Once I got home I belly flopped onto my matress. It hurt, but not as much as my heart did.

That was a cringey thing to say, but my heart just got broken I'm aloud to say cringey shit!

Maybe going out as mysterion would help. I thought to myself. But then, another genius idea popped in.

Butters had a crush on mysterion, I was mysterion! I could see butters without making things awkward!

And I could kiss him! Okay, maybe that's a little too fast. But it was basically what happened with chaos the other night.

He kissed me and boom. Anyway, I put on my mysterion costume that needed washing very badly and made my way through the roofs of South park once more.

I liked it, it made me feel like Spiderman.

I made it to butters house and knocked on the window. He opened it just enough for me to sneak in.

"Mysterion! What are you doing here?" He whisper-yelled. I smiled. "This," I said before smashing our lips together.

It was amazing. But it kinda felt like Deja vu....ehhhhh. doesn't matter.

I'm kissing my crush right now. God, I sound like a thirteen year old girl.

#cringe.