I’m running away from my own pain not knowing what to do with it..
Until one day a door opens up..
It happens to be you.
You say sorry, with nothing else. and leave the room..
Did you think it would start over or be something new?
You left a big chapter in my book more like two.
It really hurts to know the truth.
You hurt me many times and stab me in the back. Yes I still love you but the trauma you gave me you can't take back..
I said No for a good reason not for the situation to continue to happen..
I said get away, not for you to choose their side again..
Why are they so important that makes you still with them….
My story is so important that many need to know but you're always in my head that makes it hard for others to know..
It started very young with lots going on..
Did not seem to understand but I knew something was wrong.
At the age 18 started to get my trust back again..
SA is a serious thing..
Still today I wish I was dead but then realizing that I am doing great things again..
I am doing it with a great smile. Nothing ends up getting in my way until the devil.
I am broken but yet beautiful too.
I have deep scars inside and out and some days it’s days I want to end it too..
With many tries and many scars i can look at my past now and say
I did it..
This is and was my story. It's now time to start something new..
My new journey has come and now I am being successful just like you.
My skills are my skills and attitude is one too..
And one day I am going to look at you and say…
FUCK YOU TOO..
All this shit that you got me thinking is..
I don't really need people to put me down and make me think about the bad things of my past again..
When I look at you I want to say that I really do love you..
But my question I always ask is do I really mean it to you or is it words like I feel when it gets said to me..
I’m stuck and afraid too..
But that does mean that I can let that beat me like it is to you….
This is the new improved kiki that is starting to know who they really want to be…
Thank you for everyone who decided to want to help me.. 🙂
April 23, 2023
Keshawn Boston
