sitting around feeling really sad not knowing whats going on in my head.people having fun while i am being depressed.thoughts coming un while i am making a request.i cant be happy while being sad.made a good bye note to all my friends. cut three times without having pain.tried again but god stop me. i stop with confident telling god i love him.hind the scars with a big band aid while whipping the tears away.i give myself permission to make mistakes because i am strong, i am important. im starting a new chapter today.woke up feeling silently sad and anxious too. went on the day and took some deep breaths and said today i am going to be finally went out to have fun.depression is still there but hidden like the rest of my emotions are
