Glee X Maleoc

Part 74 5x03

Chris's Pov

H-he's dead, just like that he's gone. It just feels so unreal? Like that at any moment, he will send a text of a call or walk through that stupid door. He was so young and had his whole life in front of him. And just like with my mom poof gone.

Santana and I had our first ultrasound, and even tho we were so happy about our baby being healthy and everything, the hurt and sadness from what happened still weight us down. It's been 3 weeks since the funeral, and I think we've both just been biting our emotions back, right now we are back In Lima Mr Shue set up a memorial week and we both wanted to come. He deserved that, I just can't believe he's gone. Rachel has been a mess, and I can't blame her. Kurt has also been a mess, and again, I can't blame him. Finn  was his brother.

As me and the others are sitting in the choir room, it's like my ears don't work anymore until Mercedes stands up and I'm snapped out of my thoughts.

" I, uh, remember Finn telling me that he sang this song to his baby's sonogram. Well, he thought it was his baby. He was the first cool kid to be nice to any of us, and he was... our leader in here. We love you, Finn." Mercedes says, and I lick my dry lips as she starts to sing. I'll stand by you.  Until they all join her in  singing the song while I stay silent.

He's really gone, just like that. He's gone, and he'll never come back again. I feel so bad for Carol and Burt  nobody should ever have to  experience losing their child. As my eyes move towards Santana's stomach, she  takes my hand in hers and intertwines our fingers together.

The Next Day.

"How are you feeling ?" Santana softly asks me as we are walking toward the auditorium. "I don't even know, I'm happy about you know, but this it's just idk. It feels surreal." I say with a heavy breath.

"I know." Santana whispers  as we walk into the auditorium and take a seat in the circle with the others.

Once Sam and Artie finish their song, Santana quickly gets up and walks away from us. Standing up, i walk in the direction she just walked off to, but she's already far gone.

Making my ways through the halls in search of my pregnant and hormonal plus emotional girlfriend, my eyes soon widen as I see Santana shove Sue into a cabinet.

"San." I soflty say, but she holds her hand up. "I need a minute." She says before walking away from me.

Running my hand through my hair, I walk into Sue's office. "I'm sorry," I say, and she takes a seat and motions for me to also sit down.

"You shouldn't apologize for her actions." Sue says, and even this, she's trying to cover it up. I can see this has all been hard on her, too.

"I-its just been hard on her, on all of us." I say as I give Sue an apologetic look. "You and I both know how it feels to lose someone close to us. Eventually, the hurt will become less, and we learn to live with what happened." Sue says, and I shake my head.

"Your sister lived a good and long life despite her problems, my mother even if she died at 37 still had the change to make something of her life to start a f-family and see me grow up. He will never have that. He was 19, and now he's gone." I say as I bite back my tears that try to escape.

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Sitting in the choir room, I see Santana has pushed all of her emotions back as she's standing in the middle of the room.

"Okay, I know that Finn had his doubts about God, but I am convinced that Squishyteets is up in Heaven right now, plopped down next to his new best friend Fat Elvis, helping themselves to a picnic of baby back ribs smothered in butterscotch pudding and tater tot grease, so, this is for you, Hudson." Santana says, and my eyes with some others widen.