𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐀𝐁𝐋𝐘 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐒

XIV: All This Time

Mina's POV

I barely make decisions for myself but why when I do, why do the decisions I make are the bad ones? Like when Y/n told me to meet me here on my 16th birthday, I didn't came because I thought she's just planning on pranking me not knowing she was actually gonna confess to me

"Now you know why I'm upset at you and it's because I knew about Y/n's feelings for you" Sana said and hugs me as I cry in front of the billboard

"I have wronged her, Sana. I'm such a horrible person"

After all this time, her feelings never faded. Why did you wait, Y/n? Why would you fall for someone like me who's selfish? Why do you have to hurt yourself? All I could ask is why.. Why didn't I feel the same earlier? Why do I have to feel it after she's over me?

The first time I knew my heart beat for her was when I cried on her back, that's the first time I have ever felt safe with someone. But I was confused and overwhelmed by the flowing emotions that I chose to push her away at first because I was scared that I would actually give in.

Overflowing emotions are new to me, I didn't know what to do with it so I kept on convincing myself that it's nothing and I'm probably only thinking about it and was paranoid. But when we were in the bathroom that dinner night, that's when I knew that what I'm feeling was real and I don't want to accept it. I never expected myself to feel that to Y/n, the person I don't like the most because why her out of all the people in the world? I thought that if I made it clear to Y/n and lied to myself that our moment at that bathroom felt nothing and I was straight, I thought it would go away but it didn't. I decided to hide it and suppressed everything because I thought it was wrong and it shouldn't happen, and that Y/n might not feel the same too

And because of my cowardliness in accepting myself and my feelings, I made the worst mistakes of all. I lied and humiliated Y/n to the public, I hurted her so bad that even now.. she doesn't dare to talk to me

Then I just found out that she felt the same as I did, she was actually obvious about her feelings for me because our friends knew about it but me. I was slow and stupid because why didn't I see the signs when it was always there?

"What do I do now?" I asked

"I don't know, only her knows the answer"

Next day …

No one's POV

Y/n is in the middle of the swimming pool as she lie down the inflatable floater while wearing sunglasses

"Girl, when do you plan on leaving the pool? You might be cooked like a hotdog later" Chaeyoung laughs

She looks at the side seeing her friends sit down the chairs

"What are you guys doing here?" Y/n asked

"We're going shopping" Nayeon said, Y/n just looks at them

"The hell? Did you forget that it's my birthday tomorrow, you dipshit?" Nayeon asked

"Oh right.."

"Oh right" Nayeon mocked Y/n

"Get off that pool and we'll wait" Jihyo smiled

Time skip …

They went to the mall to buy clothes that they'll be wearing tomorrow. Nayeon have decided to throw her birthday party at a cruise ship, they're gonna travel from Korea to Bali

"Don't you dare wear shiny ones, it's my event.. don't you steal my spotlight" Nayeon said, Jihyo rolled her eyes

"Don't worry I won't steal your spotlight because I'm gonna wear pajamas" Jihyo sarcastically said