Alone

Chapter 5: What's Life Worth Anyway?

Amaro saw me making a quick exit; I saw him start to come after me.

"Olivia! Olivia, wait up!" I stopped but didn't turn around. He walked around so that he was facing me.

He looked like he was about to ask what was wrong. I shook my head, I don't want to talk about it.

"I'll take you home..." He stated hesitantly.

"No, it's fine. I'm fine. I'm going to eat lunch with Rafael anyway."

He looked at me a little funny.

"You mean ADA Barba?" He said with a smirk.

I can feel the heat rising to my face. Lunckly you couldn't tell because I had been crying uncontrollably.

"Mmm yea." I said nervously. "See ya later..." I mumbled and quickly walked out of the building.

Once I was outside, I took a deep breath to calm myself.

'God, it's been four years. Just when I was starting to forget him... He comes back, NOW of all times. Does he expect me to still... To still love him? At all?' I think to myself.

****Memory****
"God, I hate cases like this..." I say to my partner.

"I know you do, Liv, so do I." Elliot replied.

We just finished a rape case. No big, right? We found the guy who did it... But it was a big deal to me. The women became pregnant with his baby. She decided to have an abortion.

"That could have been me, El." I state.
"That should have been me." I add.

"Don't ever say that again." Elliot says harshly. "You mean so much, you have so much to live for..."

"No, I don't." I cut him off. "You have a family, Elliot, I don't. All I have is this job and you. But I don't have you. Figures the man I fall for is happily married." I say as I take a swig of my beer.

He stares at me in shock across the bar table. It's one in the morning, almost no one's in the bar because it's Tuesday.