Practice Buddies? [TYDE]

Morning Coffee

Craig and Tolkien took a sip of their coffee. They were at Tweek's parents' coffee shop on a Sunday morning. Usually Craig would decline such an early offer to hangout, but Tolkien said it was urgent.

"So." Craig began, "What do you want, at 8 in the fucking morning on a Sunday."

"I'm sorry," Tolkien apologized, putting his coffee cup down, "I have a serious-ish question to ask you, and this was the only time I could do it."

"Okay. So what's your question?" Craig asked flatly.

"How..." Tolkien hesitated, then looked back up at Craig, "How did you know you were gay?"

"Oh! What the fuck?" Craig was NOT expecting a question like that from Tolkien, aka Mr. Loyal Boyfriend of Nichole Daniels, "Why? Are you gay?"

"No!" Tolkien waved his hands no, then sighed, "I'm not gay! I... think. Just please answer my question..."

"Fine fine, whatever." Craig took another sip of his coffee then began, "When the town started shipping me and Tweek together, I was pissed. I hated Tweek for a bit until I realized that we could fix it by 'breaking up' or whatever. After that, though, things got worse and we basically decided to pretend date for awhile until the town forgot about it and we could quietly 'break up'. But after awhile, I just started to fall in love with Tweek. I'm not going to go into details about how fucking perfect he is, but the basis of it is: I just wanted to be with him all the time. I hated the thought of ending our relationship and having him go to another person that wasn't me. Not to mention, I always wanted to like... kiss him and shit, you know? He is really handsome."

"I... see." Tolkien took a minute to process everything and get his thoughts in order before speaking to the other, "So you... but... what about how you felt towards girls? I thought you had a crush on a few of them."

"I know," Craig looked at his cup, "But it never felt right you know? Like I would only do it because all of my friends, well, of us guys were getting girlfriends. I started to feel left out, so I tried to see if there was a girl I liked. Of course there wasn't, but still."

Tolkien only hummed in response. He was looking down at the table, deep in thought. He was very troubled by what Craig told him about his sexuality, and how he found out about it. Tolkien really just came here to prove to himself he was straight, but now he wasn't sure.

"Why are you asking?" Craig took a sip of his coffee, "Is there some guy you like or some shit?"

"I.. I don't know." He started to know, though, "I think? But I don't know. I just... I'm so confused."

"Wow." Craig said flatly, "You look like your in a gay crisis."

"The fuck is a gay crisis?"

"I don't know I saw it in a tv show once." Craig shrugged, "Who is making you so confused through, dude?"

"Uh..."

"Nevermind." Craig rolled his eyes, "Don't tell me if your not comfortable. Can I guess though?"

"Sure." Tolkien wondered if it was obvious or not.

"Uhm," Craig pondered, "Is it.... Jimmy?"

"Jimmy?!" Tolkien stuck out his tongue in disgust, "What?! No!"

"Fuck dude, is it even a kid in our class?"

The two talked for 30 more minutes, most of that being Craig guessing different boys that could possibly be Tolkien's crush. Although Craig did actually guess right, (on the third fucking guess too) Tolkien said that it wasn't Clyde. He didn't want Craig to actually find out, just wanted him to know what was generally going on for Tolkien and answer some of the boy's questions.

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this is supposed to be a shorter chapter (transitional chapter) dont @ me broskis