But now I sleep alone

Chapter 31

Tony and I fly out tomorrow. Eliza has helped me no end in the last few weeks. I'm keeping hold of the house and studio but renting the house out. I couldn't face selling it and it means if we are back in Wales we have somewhere to stay.
James has offered to be the full time manager at the studio. I know he's more than capable and Eliza will be in charge of all the legal stuff and money. That way I'll still have an income. Tony is getting me health insurance sorted and my doctor has all my notes ready to be emailed to whichever doctor I sign up with out there, so that's taken a while to sort out. My health has improved slightly. Not a massive amount but a little is better than not at all I guess. I'm still in pain a lot but not as much as before and not as often.
I look around the house I've called my home my entire life and smile at some of the memories I have. The time my dad threw an impromptu barbecue in the middle of winter and invited half the village. He was flipping burgers as snow fell.
The time my mam caught the boy from down the road scrumping apples from the tree along the drive so she threw one at him and he fell out of the tree and landed in the pond under it.
And the time Tony came here with me and we made love in the sea and on the balcony and anywhere we could.
All such wonderful memories.
But here's to a new life with the man who has made me the happiest I've ever been. He's brought me back from the brink of despair and injected life and happiness back into the black hole that was in my heart when I lost my mam.
I take my photo album and all my personal DVD's and pack them in my suitcase. I can't leave them behind. I know they'll help me remember my darling parents. Tony wanders into the room and pulls me up from the carpet where I've been sitting to do my packing and into his arms. The rest of the band flew back a couple of weeks ago but Tony didn't want to leave me, even for a few days. So he stayed and helped me organise everything. I've had so many wishes of good luck off the bands I've worked with and I feel so lucky to have had the opportunity to have worked with them. They've all promised to look me up when they tour the States so I expect some serious partying will take place.
I look up at Tony and gently kiss him. He can't wait to get me back to the States so he can put "that ring" on me, he says. I usually slap his arm lightly when he does, just to wind him up.
He looks at me with pure love in his eyes before he pushes me towards the bed. It's getting late and I don't want to be too sleepy when I wake up tomorrow but I have a feeling not much sleeping is planned. Our flight is at 4pm though so at least we don't have to wake up too early which is a good thing being as Tony is already stripping my clothes off me, kissing down my chest and stomach. He sits back and takes off his t-shirt and pants and when he's as naked as me, he thrusts into me. I scream out his name as waves of euphoria flow over both of us as we pant and moan each other's names for the last time in this house. For now at least.