Into The Abstract

Tomorrow's better than today

Some days I'm sinking,

Some days I'm flying,

I get lost in my mind sometimes,

It's a maze you see,

It's complex and dark down there,

Makes me feel like crying,

But I don't,

'Cause at times,

Crying makes me feel like dying,

And I can't do that,

I try to stay bright,

But to do that I must stay out of my mind,

To stay out of my mind makes me forget,

Forgetting leads to getting in trouble,

Trouble means pressure and stress,

Stress leads to a break down,

And that leads me back to the start,

So you see my complication,

My error,

My imperfection,

But while I try to make others smile,

It seems, I make those left frown,

And as I try to make more people happy,

More people become unhappy,

I try to stay out of my mind,

But in the end it leads to trouble,

Trouble I cannot afford,

Trouble that will make things worse,

And since I live in North America,

Funeral prices are high,

And I can't afford that,

So, you see my imperfections,

So I cover it up,

Sometimes I can become overbearing, difficult, obnoxious, arrogant,

It's all fake,

And if you are hurt I'm sorry,

But to let you in on a secret,

When I end up hurting someone,

I always feel that hurt ten-fold in guilt, pain, and self-anger,

I've been this way since I was little,

Covering up my pain to help someone else,

Hiding my pain,

To make someone feel better,

I am hurting,

I am complex,

I am probably ensuring my death,

But I aways push through,

And whoever you may be,

'Good' or 'bad',

Bitter, or sweet,

I do it for you,

I live for you,

I live for all of you.

And if you don't have a reason to live,

Let me tell you something,

There will always be a tomorrow,

It will almost always be better than today.