What desire cannot see (bibleapo)

chapter 18

"you mean..."

Apo played with his words, efforts to finally spit them out his mouth. His lips parted with shock. His mind is all focused on the words his bodyguard only utter to him. He clutched on his bedsheets on both ends, unable control this feeling of emotional hurt. The grief overcoming his senses and he just feels all alone, his brain stopping the thinking process, a deep paralyses to his neurons making his nervous system tick off.

"We do not wish to describe this further...mile is dead"
Bas informed one last time before moving out of the room with his head lowered, eyes fixed to the blank surface of the ground. Hands trembling after he witnessed an informal gore scene he himself felt uncomfortable of. The thought made him gag, he held on the wall before calming down but the dishevelled image of his former boss has completely possessed his mind. Apo wasn't in the right condition to view the scene for himself. The unfortunate and sorry condition of a death much disgusting to even make a report wasn't professional. A human who once would dominate the world had been torn like a piece of paper, the improper way of scattering just implied how inexperienced the hand seemed to be yet enjoyed every bit of the torture it served to the dead body. It mixed with the dirt of the thunderous rain in the middle of night, even a butcher would treat the animal waste better then the way the beast has chewed over the body of Mile. Not even a proper funeral was formal enough to be proposed to at such an indescribable state. It was sickening to the stomach.

Bas walked across the corridor while trembling at all his step like disturbing images of the crime scene kept on flashing in his eyes. He tried to pull out his phone to call job and inform him to carry on with the next arrangements and body disposals plans.
"I think you are sick, you should rest..."
Bas jumped at his placed, he ended with his hand resting on his chest as if been just stopping his heart from drumming out of his abdomen.
"Bible...what are you, well i can't rest...I need to..."
Bas avoided his eye contact, cause he wouldn't dare look back with fear into the eyes which belonged to a human who simple verse made him almost pee his pants. Bible was a man he finds something weird of, from the start and till date, someone he needs to look into.
"I understand, you better should hurry..."
Bible pulled himself back from his slight lean forward which he maintained while he conversed with his Po's favourite bodyguard. He thought if it would have been better and smooth if he started being at his beloveds service from the start. But before he he could even opt for a long term goal, universe just adored him a way too much. What a gruesome tragedy was it, like it was planned when all the strings were just messed up by him.

Bas bowed and walked in his pace leading downstairs. Bible smiled before he himself made his way to where apo was. As for now, he had no idea what would happen once he steps in, but he does know that he had to act like a little puppy before the monster within him takes over his pride.

Meanwhile apo's eyes couldn't stop leaking. He was all so stunned and unable to speak. He finally decided to stand up and hurriedly search for his pack of cigarettes. All he knows that the death of the love of his life has been confirmed, he has been not informed the cause of death, the state of the man nor the condition he was in before he stopped breathing. Apo picked up the pack from the drawer and split it open for the sticks, he placed the three of it at once, again further rummaging through for the lighter, and burning them at extreme after he did lay his hands on the metal.

"P'po...are you alright?"
Apo turned after puffing a load out his mouth. He watched bible looking at him with his hazel and lost eyes he finds so mysterious. There was something about this boy that attracts him to a certain level that he grows scared at the point.

"What do you think?..."
Apo just kept his dark lost eyes to the boys, waiting for an answer with an applicable reaction. For some reason apo started getting pissed at the point. He wanted to shove bible away and cry alone in his despair. He just feels that his life is useless and worthless, like he needs to be tossed out and he won't bother having bible witness such a pathetic scene.

"You seem tired, how can I help you?..."
Tired', it wasnt what apo was expecting to hear from the boy. Was bible being ignorant or just is dumb? Apo chuckled, and that chuckle turned to a laugh, like he was enjoying the comedic joke that was being played right infront of him.

"Nice one haha, bible...go out...I do not need you here"
Apo turned back to watch the different portraits of him and mile hanging on the wall, love messages been inscribed every time they said something new to each other. Apo sipped in the cigarettes and puffed out smoke again.

Suddenly apo felt a jerk, he suddenly couldn't breathe, he turned to face emptiness but realized that he had been covered by a bigger figure, not in height but in stature. Apo felt suffocation take over him, he started breathing heavily trying to push bible away that was blocking his breath with the extreme closeness.

"Please...huffd...move...biblehuff"
Apo grasped in search of breath, like suddenly his air pipes were being held in a fist, stopping to flow, the access of air. It was panick. Bible held on apos hands which rested on his chest trying to push him to a distance.

"Please...p'po, let me help you...I need to...please..."
Bible started encircling his arms around apo, with the later not loving it very much, instead apo wanted to cry at the suffocation being too much and bible was already starting to get on his nerves with his overreaction. Apo struggled but ended up getting pressed to Bibles body in the end. Apo cried loud, his hands finally accepting the embrace, a shoulder he finally pleaded his cries on. The room filled with his only scream calling out to mile, his entire body being soaked with the emotional heat.

"Sh...calm down..."
Bible let his hands run from up to down at apos back, loving caressing the soft muscles. Apo moaned at the ecstasy of comfort.

"Is this...how he touched you?...here...is it p'po?"